I am on edge and can't concentrate. Although the conference speaker is interesting and entertaining she can't compete with the distraction I feel when anticipating what will happen when I get home this evening; the excitement of being slowly, lovingly undressed and laid on our bed, my legs apart, knees lifted; revealing, enticing, welcoming; the weight of him pressing into me. The breathless urgency of the need my brother and I both feel for him to invade my most taboo depths.
I am fidgety with anticipation and my panties are already moist. I need to distract myself, to think about something else, but I can't do it. How did it come to this? How did I get to feel like this?
I remember how it started, some years ago, on a camping trip in the hills of the English Lake District. My brother Ben, me and a couple of his friends, Cathy and Darren, all of us in our late teens or early twenties, were driving north to the mountains. Cathy and Darren had only just met, introduced to each other by my brother Ben. I sat in the back seat of their small car packed in with my brother, camping gear and sufficient food and drink for the weekend. We were crushed together but we didn't mind as we had always been part of a very tactile family. Hugging and kissing were the norm with our parents, uncles, aunts and cousins.
It was a warm day. As the journey wore on I grew tired and put my head on Ben's shoulder. He slipped his arm around me and I drifted off to sleep as the miles rolled by. Sometime later I awoke to find I'd slipped down so that my head was resting in his lap. His arm was still curving around me so that his hand has almost touching the side of my breast while my cheek was definitely feeling something a little more than soft in his shorts.
I was suddenly very wide awake as I realised that I could feel his cock and balls through the thin fabric. I knew that Ben was quite well endowed in that department because I'd often seen him in swimming trunks - and sometimes walking round the house in his underpants, which was quite normal in our household. However, even though I had never been quite this close to his cock before, I was pretty certain that it was a bit larger than normal.
Wide awake now, I didn't move while I worked out what to do without embarrassing myself or him. I didn't want to let him know I could feel his arousal -- was it for me? So I pretended I was still asleep while enjoying -- and yes I was enjoying -- the feeling of his obvious excitement against my cheek.
Luckily my dilemma was solved as we arrived at the motorway exit we needed and Darren called back to us.
"Just a few more miles now."
I lifted my head, yawned melodramatically and 'woke up'.
"Thanks bro," I said to Ben. "I needed that."
"No worries Amy. My pleasure," he replied with a warm smile.
After a few miles of winding country lanes we arrived at the wild camping site we had chosen. Close to the mountains, next to a stream and miles from civilisation. Perfect.
We set about erecting our two tents on some flat ground. I noticed that during the time we separated to go and find some firewood for our portable fire pit, Darren took Ben aside and had a quiet conversation with him. After a minute or so I saw Ben smile and nod agreement.
Shortly afterward Ben came over to me and explained.
"Well sis. It's like this. Darren and Cathy are getting along really well and they asked if we'd mind if they could share one of the tents. That's if you don't mind sharing with me?
"Well yeah if they want to, I don't mind. No snoring though!" I replied.
"I don't snore!"
"You'd better not!"
So I ended up sharing tent with my brother. Not a problem -- as I said we were always a fairly informal family where casual semi-nudity was just part of everyday life.
After an enjoyable evening sitting around the fire with a few beers, joking and laughing it grew dark and it was time to crawl into our sleeping bags.
It was a warm night so I kept my panties on but didn't bother with anything else as I climbed into my bag. My brother did the same and I do remember admiring the solid body he'd developed - strong shoulders, a firm torso and well-muscled legs. He switched off the torch leaving just the moonlight casting a soft glow through the tent fabric -- just enough to see shapes and shadows inside the tent. I lay on my back relaxing and looking forward to a good night's sleep.
Ben whispered, "Goodnight Amy. It will be a good day tomorrow."
"Yeah, sleep well," I replied settling down to sleep.
However sleep didn't come easily because I was too warm so I unzipped my sleeping bag and uncovered most of my body to cool off. A heard Ben unzip his as well.
"Hot isn't it?" I whispered to Ben.
"That's not the only thing that's hot," he whispered back.
"What do you mean?"
"Listen!"
From Cathy and Darren's tent we could hear whispering, quiet giggling, a zip being pulled down and the rustle of clothing being removed. Then a few hushed words: "Let me just.." Yes, that's better." "Mmm -- that's good." "You're so wet!" "That's your fault!" "Shush! They'll hear us!" Then more giggling and quite sighs. Soon we could hear a gentle rhythm developing as they obviously started to fuck.
"Christ Ben, they're fucking! That is so hot!" I whispered instinctively grabbing Ben's hand and holding it quite tightly. Almost without thought I slipped my other hand into my panties where I found the wetness showing I was pretty turned on. Ben squeezed my hand and I heard him slide his other hand into his own pants. We lay there for a while listening to the increasingly urgent fucking sounds from the other tent while we both quietly played with ourselves.
To this day I can't say why I did what I did next. Call it the heat of the moment; maybe the brain has little control over the body when it is in a state of sexual arousal; just maybe I was fulfilling a deep fantasy I had had about Ben for years. I don't know why but I lifted Ben's hand up to my naked breast placing it over my erect nipple. He froze and whispered a question "Amy... what..?"
Instead of answering in words I squeezed the back of his hand to encourage him to massage my breast. His warm skin on my flesh was exciting and arousing and soon he didn't need further encouragement. He was gently rolling my nipple in his fingers and smoothly caressing the whole of my breast. My hand was still inside my panties with my finger caressing my clit as I became wetter and wetter.
I felt Ben wiggle his pants down and shift to lie on his side. Suddenly I could feel his hand stroking his warm erect cock against the side of my thigh. Instinctively I slid my hand down between us, pushed his hand out of the way and took hold of his cock. He gasped in surprise but didn't stop me. His cock felt wonderful; warm, solid and alive. I didn't need to move my hand much as he was now gently thrusting backwards and forwards in effect 'fucking' my hand while I continued stroking my clit and becoming more excited as his hand roaming freely over my up-thrust breasts. My nipples were rigid.
We were both beginning to pant and moan as quietly as we could, but soon we didn't really care what the consequences might be if Cathy and Darren did hear us.
As I became more and more aroused I grabbed Ben's hand and pushed it firmly into my panties. He grunted in surprise but immediately slide his finger between my pussy lips and into my vagina. Without thinking I lifted my hips and parted my thighs to welcome his exploration of my body.
Our own moans and sighs became a counterpoint to the ever more frantic thrusts and groans from the other tent. Ben was increasing the rhythm of his thrusts into my hand while finger fucking me harder and faster. I could feel him holding his breath as his climax neared.
"Amy, I... I'm going to..." he panted.