Prologue
I'm Leslie Smith; just a normal eighteen-year-old girl in her last year of high school. I make really good grades and I'm one of the most popular girls in my class. I'm also a closeted lesbian who's in love with her older sister. Is that weird?
You see, my older sister, Carrie, is the coolest. She's smart, pretty, and very athletic. She's also been a proud lesbian for years now. She first came out to our parents when she was thirteen. I, on the other hand, have never tried being honest with them about it and since I've only dated guys so far, our parents have absolutely no clue about how close my sister and I actually are.
Our mom is always busy. She's always either stuck at work late or off on some business trip. Our dad takes care of things around the house, but he's usually occupied making sure our little brother gets to his extra curriculars. It's generally pretty easy for Carrie and I to find some time alone to fool around.
Even before we started sleeping together, Carrie and I were super close. She was practically my best friend growing up and I always looked up to her - I still do. The two of us can talk about anything together. I tell her all my secrets. So, after my last boyfriend broke my heart, I told her that I was done with guys. She was probably joking when she said it, but she told me that I should give dating girls a try. I didn't hate the idea, but the only girl I had ever been truly interested in was her. I told her that, and that was the start of our new relationship.
The two of us have gotten even closer since then, and our relationship, or maybe just my sister, has become less awkward. She's more willing to kiss even when we're not completely home alone. She doesn't even mind when I sneak into her bed for some playtime anymore, but lately she's been really busy with college and hasn't had much time to spend with me. I miss her.
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It was Thursday night and I was sitting at the kitchen table with my dad and my thirteen-year-old brother, Andy. Dinner was ready over 20 minutes ago and Carrie still hadn't come down to eat, even though I had told her that I made her favorite. This wasn't the first dinner she had missed this week, either.
Monday, she had been late coming home from school. Tuesday, she had been home on time, but rushed and left dinner early, and yesterday, she skipped dinner entirely. I had just assumed she didn't want to stomach one of Dad's experimental meals, but here she was, missing meatloaf and mashed potatoes. I even sauteed the green beans on the side exactly how she liked them. Hmph!
I sat at the table frustratedly picking at my food. After I had tried so hard to do something nice for her, she still hadn't come down to eat. What was with her lately? I'd hardly seen her all week. Every time I stopped by her room, she was too busy to stop and talk let alone have any fun. I knew she had been super swamped with homework recently, but she could still make more of an effort to hang out.
Dad and Andy cleared out of the kitchen and left their dishes on the counter. They had to go and get ready to leave for one of Andy's sports games. I forgot which one of them was supposed to be tonight; he played so many. I grumpily put the leftovers away for Mom, and Carrie, if she ever left her room. I grumbled to myself as I rinsed the dishes and put them in the dishwasher.
"Stupid Carrie. Always too busy... I know she's got finals soon, but she has to take a break some time... She should know I miss her... Grr!"
I slammed the dishwasher closed, then turned to lean against the sink with my arms folded under my chest. I whipped around so quickly that my long brown pony tail smacked against my face. I groaned in frustration. I had finished cleaning up completely, and Carrie still hadn't come downstairs. I was mad at her, so I decided to go up to her room and tell her.
I walked upstairs to her bedroom door and knocked.
"Come in," I heard her say.
I opened the door and I didn't bother hiding the frown on my face. Carrie was seated at her desk with her head lying on top of it and her laptop closed in front of her. She seemed kinda down, but I wasn't going to let that keep me from telling her that I was angry with her.
"Carrie, we called you for dinner like half an hour ago! You said five minutes," I said crankily.
"I know..." she sighed. "I was trying to write this stupid paper. My professor hated my draft, so I'm nearly back to the drawing board trying to make it 'more interesting.' I'm sorry, but there's just no way to make certain parts of history interesting," she grumbled.
I wasn't frowning quite as hard as I had been. I must have started to feel bad for her since she seemed really upset about this paper.
"You seem stressed," I said to her while still in the doorway.
"Ugh, I am!" she exclaimed as she sat up suddenly. "School's been awful so far. There's tons of homework, the professors are all really unhelpful, and no one else seems to be struggling at all!"
She put her head back down on the desk facing away from me this time. She seemed truly upset, and I suddenly felt bad for being so mad at her. I closed the door softly, then walked up behind her and wrapped my arms around her shoulders. After a few seconds, she sat up and let me hug her. She spun her chair around and I held her from her side. Her head rested against my stomach as her arms wrapped around my lower waist. I stroked her head, then ran my arms down to her shoulders and upper back. She felt tense. Maybe Carrie just needed to relax a bit.
"You know what? I think you just need a break. Maybe if you take your mind off of it for a while it won't be so stressful when you come back to it," I suggested.
"Maybe, but I have to finish this paper by tomorrow. I'm running out of time."
I stepped back so I could look at her.
"Come on, a little break won't hurt."
After I said that, a dirty thought crossed my mind. I suddenly knew the perfect way to help her relieve some stress.
"I could help you take your mind off things... relax a little... if you want..." I said seductively.
She sat there and seemed to think about it for a moment.
"I don't know..." she said hesitantly.
"Dad and Andy are about to leave. It will be just the two of us until Mom gets home around 8:30."
Carrie glanced at the clock, then took some more time to think. It was 5:52; that gave us plenty of time. We'd be home alone, so she wouldn't even have to keep quiet. There was no way she could say no to that. She hated it when she had to try not to moan, or when she didn't get to hear me make noises.