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A short time has passed since my first night of passion with Nathan. I'm beginning to feel sick every morning. I've been throwing up a lot. I went to the drug store yesterday to get a pregnancy test. I feel so scared. I don't know how Nathan will react to a baby. I know he loves me- I know we're going to get married- but a baby- now? "Am I ready for this?" I think to myself as I look in the mirror. Standing in the middle of my room totally nude- my perky breasts standing at full attention, my long blonde hair flowing down my back- and my stomach that was once flat, now has a slight bulge in it.
"There's no need to take that test," I think to myself. "You're already pregnant Mandy, just deal with it," I say softly on my way to the bathroom. My hands shake nervously as I open the package. "I've never taken one of these things before," I say to myself as I rip open the "stick. " "Hold in urine for 1 full minute," I read aloud. Taking a deep breath, I begin my test. Placing the lid back on the tip, I wait nervously for a result. "One line not pregnant, two lines pregnant," I say to myself as I watch the lines starting to appear. Small tears well in my eyes as the second line appears. "There's no denying it now Mandy- you're pregnant," I say to myself, rubbing my belly as I look in the mirror. "How am I going to tell Nathan- what will Mom and Dad say?" all of these questions race through my head as I begin to cry.
I walk down the stairs, sitting on the couch. "It's 5:30pm, Nathan should be home from the office soon- how are you going to tell him Mandy? How are you going to tell him?" I think to myself as tears roll down my face. I hear the car pull in, Nathan opens the front door walking into the living room. I turn my head to look at him, my eyes all puffy and swollen.
"Hi Brother," I say softly. "Oh, Mandy, what's wrong baby? What's wrong?" Nathan says as he walks to the couch, sitting down to hold me. "You can tell me angel, whatever it is, you can tell me," he says softly, running his fingers up and down my back.
"Nathan, I don't know how to tell you this... I... I just don't know," I say sobbing as I lay my head on his shoulder.
"Just tell me angel, whatever it is, we can handle it together. I love you Mandy, whatever it is, I'm here for you," Nathan says as he takes my face in his hands, looking straight into my eyes.
"Nathan, I'm pregnant," I say softly- awaiting his reaction.
"Pregnant?" he replies softly, smiling at me.
"You... you aren't mad?" I ask a little surprised.
"Why would I be mad Mandy? I made that baby, I did that to you, how could I be mad? How could I be angry at the woman who is carrying my child?" he said calmly, kissing my lips tenderly.
"Oh Nathan, I love you so much. I'm so scared. I'm so young... and what... what will mom and dad say?" I ask nervously.
"Well, the worst part is over with," Nathan says as he gets up, unbuttoning his shirt and taking off his tie.
"What do you mean, the worst part?"