My son was released from prison 48 hours before the biggest blizzard in recorded history was to hit the Midwest. At that time, I was thankful his ex dropped the assault charges. It didn't matter why, I was just happy to have my boy home. Part of me was excited the snowstorm was coming and with the threat of how severe it would be I knew we'd have time to catch up. After all, he had been so quiet; almost disturbed, when he got out of County.
But I knew my boy was in there...somewhere.
Understandably, before the storm hit, he wanted to catch up with some friends at the bar. While he was carousing, I stocked up on everything that I knew we'd need to get us through at least a week. I bought board games, rented movies, got candles in case the lights went out, gathered firewood, etc. I left no stone unturned to make sure everything would be comfortable. And sure enough, just as the meteorologist said, it began to snow.
Danny came home from the bar when it really started coming down. I was waiting by the window for hours.
"You played it close," I said hugging him and most assuredly bugging him.
"What do you mean?" he said, swaying, irritated.
"I was worried you might've gotten stuck in the middle of the shit."
"That already happened."
"What's that mean?" I asked, already worried about his frame of mind since he had gotten released.
"Everyone in this fuckhole town already has their opinion of who I am and what I've done." Danny tore off his wet jacket and threw it on the ground. He kicked off his shoes and stomped upstairs. "So it doesn't really matter what I do. Might as well do what I fucking want."
I would've gone after him but to be honest, he scared me when he was angry. So I just let him be and hoped for a better tomorrow. With all that crisp, white snow the world would look like a fresh start for my boy. Couple that with a good breakfast and an understanding, compassionate mother and he was bound to see things differently.
Funny how we moms think that's all a boy needs. A loving mommy. Which might be the case. But Danny was no boy. Danny was a man. A big, dangerous man. How big and how dangerous, I was soon to find out.
I ended the night alone, finsihied off a bottle of wine and watched the snow come down like a constant avalanche. The streets were already indecipherable from the curbs, sidewalks or lawns. It was just one big blanket of white. Wet and deep.
No matter how well insulated a home is, the fury of such a storm is enough to make anyone nervous. Its probably an instinctual thing held back from ancient times. So I turned the heat up and went up to bed as the snow began to touch the bottom of window sills. I stumbled upstairs, past Danny's room and into mine then passed out.
I slept in complete darkness except for the streetlights outside. I was woken when the weight of a body hit my bed and a hand carressed my backside over the comforter. Frozen in fear, I couldn't move. Unsure in my drunkenness if I dreamt this or not I waited until I heard his voice.
"Yes, that's nice. Its so firm and nice," It was Danny. His palm massaged the curve of my ass. Spooned against me his breath passed through my hair. His speech was soaked in alcohol, slurring almost unintelligibly. "That's a nice firm ass."
I'd be complimented if I were on a date. I worked hard to stay slim, runner's body of my youth. At five foot nothing, keeping the weight off was no easy feat. Keeping my legs trim instead of stocky was a constant challenge. I had enough junk in the trunk throughout life to keep the elastic of my panties working double time and even though my thighs were thick, they were strong, carved muscle. I've always been blessed with a tiny waist and ample breasts. Or at least I felt that I was fortunate until I realized who would take them and make them his.
"Son," I said exasperated in my shadowy bedroom. The light from a streetlamp bled yellow through a frosted window. The smell of booze saturated the air. "Danny its me. Its Mom. Wake up"
I thought his wandering hand would stop but it moved up and grabbed my right breast. I hadn't realized until I felt his coarse hands that my breast had peeked out from my loose nightgown. He massaged my flesh and with his two fingertips he teased my hardening nipples.
"Mommy baby," he said.
I winced and whimpered. "Stop it Danny."
"Jerk me off."