I looked at myself in the mirror of the elevator as it sped up toward my floor. My dark hair was in a bob, light makeup, and the knee length black dress. Below were the dark stockings and my new black leather boots. Pointy with high heels. Men had been looking at me all day, even some quite young ones; the boots were a hit. I was looking good for a 43 year old. The dress was tight around the back, accentuating my nice legs and firm rear. I showed a little cleavage, and my firm small breasts still had some perk in them. The doors opened and I looked for my keys as I approached the door. What would he be doing? Playing games on his computer. Another day with my 18 year old son, and no conversation.
I had been divorced for 3 years now, and I lived for him since my ex-husband left. But it was a one sided love. Whatever he wanted, I did. I got all I could to get for him, but it had become so frustrating. New computer, trips, clothes, sports but all I got from him were nods, as if I was a burden for him. I had been thinking lately that I needed to find someone, a boyfriend, someone to live for, because he was living in his own world. The last straw was the photography classes and digital camera, the whole thing cost me over four thousand dollars, and when I asked him about it, nothing, no engagement, no conversation. I was lucky to get the I-pod set off his hears for 30 minutes at dinner.
I walked into the apartment, trying as always to be cheerful, but not expecting any warmth in return. I walked toward his room, tapped on the door. "Hi honey, I'm home, can I come in for a moment." I had just gotten a bonus, and I thought to take him to dinner, I good steak and some wine, it would be good for me, and maybe for him.
"One second, okay, come in." I opened the door; of course he was looking at the computer as always, not even a look toward me to recognize my existence.
"I got a bonus today, how about a nice steak at the place on the corner?" He slowly turned to acknowledge me, as if it was a great strain for him. Then something strange happened. His head moved back as if he had seen something that greatly interested him. After a short pause, he said something that shocked me.
"Mom, you look great, I love those boots, when did you get them?"
"Yesterday. You like them?" I lifted one leg and moved the boot to show him.
"I love them, let me get ready, I am so hungry." Well, just when I thought all was lost with him, he shows me he is actually my son and has some warm feelings toward me. I was hoping this would happen one day, that the adolescent angst would wear off and he would become the loving son he had been before he became a teenager. We had a nice dinner, and I drank a bottle of wine, letting him drink liberally from my glass. When we got home I was in the mood for a night cap and a few cigarettes. I sat on the couch with my Scotch on the rocks, feeling happy after having had a fun dinner with Tim. It was so nice to talk with him, hear what he was doing and feel like he was interested in letting me know what was going on with his life. Then to my surprise, he came and sat down next to me. "Mom, would you like to listen to some music?"
"Please. Some Miles, if you don't mind. Make yourself a drink if you want, but just one." He complied dutifully then sat next to me, the first time in years I think we sat on the couch and just listened to music.
"God mom, you look great in those boots." He reached down and touched the leather; I lifted my leg so he could explore them more. "So smooth, he rubbed his hand around my calves; it was so nice to have him close. He leaned his head on my shoulder, and continued to rub the leather. We stayed like this, and I was so happy. His head slid down to my chest, and I rubbed is hair as his hand moved up my leg. He was now touching the stocking on my knee, he even rubbed my thigh. His head moved slowly down, his ear resting on the skin below my neck. I kissed him on the forehead; he kissed me on my neck, his hand moved up my thigh, rubbing my tired legs. He continued to kiss me, as I took the last drag of my cigarette and finished my drink. It had been a long day. I took a deep breath and his kissed lowered to the top of my dress, rubbing the base of my breast.
"You do like these boots; I should wear them more often." I gave him a kiss on the cheek and got up. "Good night baby, see you tomorrow." I slept so well, feeling like I had got my son back.
I must have known that the boots were part of it, because the next day I bought a short above the knee black skirt, and some new stockings, the kind that wrap around the top of the thigh, and a new g-string. I also purchased a new Wonder bra, to give a little more volume to my small breasts, and a light blue silk shirt. I got home, and before going to his room, I put it all on. I looked at myself, all I needed was a little make up, I was feeling very sexy. I tapped on his door, than opened it, not waiting for him to let me in. "So, what do you think, how about a drink in the living room?"