Chapter 14: Confession
By Charlie Flemming
Copyright 2020 Charlie Flemming
"So, James is back?" Bri asked, another attempt to make conversation.
"Yup," Liz said in yet another monosyllabic answer and they drove in silence for a few more minutes.
"Where are we going again?" Bri asked when she couldn't stand it anymore again. She knew that Liz was going through a lot. She also knew that Liz was completely whipped by her husband James and usually followed him around like a puppy dog while he was there, even though he seemed to mostly ignore Liz unless he wanted something from her.
"Out," Liz said. Truthfully she was too distracted by her thoughts right then. Her Sex Demon seemed to be gone because once James showed up at home all of Liz's sexual desire went right out the window. This was mostly because after over 20 years of terrible sex with the same man, she'd basically given up on ever being sexually satisfied or getting to live out her fantasies caused by her overpowering libido. So, because of this, she kept it all locked away and denied this part of herself since she married him.
I can't ever let "her" out again either,
Liz thought as she remembered how much she messed up her relationship with Brianna after that,
I mean, if it weren't for my fucking Sex Demon, I'd still be close enough that maybe I could tell her about all this. I still don't know what to do. I know everything with Nathan has to stop. But I don't want to stay with James anymore. I'm not just his "trophy" anymore. He may have paid for everything but I've never had any emotional support from him the entire time we've been married. So, I'm going to have to divorce his ass and never have sex again.
She was very sure of this last part. With her Sex Demon locked up and only knowing regret from
every
sexual experience in her life, Liz was positive it was better to be chaste than miserable.
Liz parked in a parking lot, not even realizing it was to a store long since abandoned. She turned off the car and was about to get out when Bri put a hand on her arm to stop her.
"Elizabeth," Bri said comfortingly, "What is it that's bothering you so much?"
"What?" Liz said back, "Nothing, I'm fine." She smiled at her friend and tried to seem sincere.
Bri already knew though and thought about saying something about catching Liz with Nathan yesterday, but knew she couldn't do that without also admitting that she had taken advantage of the situation, so she took a different route, "You're obviously not fine, Liz. We're parked at a shop that closed down almost ten years ago."
Liz looked up out the windshield and saw that her friend was correct and she had driven them to an abandoned parking lot. Her entire demeanor changed as she slunk back in the driver's seat looking absolutely miserable. "I have a lot on my mind today." She said meekly.
Bri still had her hand on Liz's arm and moved it up, loving the feel of her best friend's perfect skin, but she did this only to take her hand and hold it compassionately, "I'm here if you want to talk about it."
Liz looked in Bri's eyes, which were just as brown as Liz's were. She was enjoying the warmth of her friend holding her hand. It was a sensual warmth, and one she never got from her husband. She was already feeling a little better from something so small, "I don't know if I can." Liz admitted though, "I'm afraid of what you'll think of me."
Bri smiled at the buxom beauty beside her, "Liz, I could never think any less of you, no matter what." Bri glanced at Liz's naturally pouty lips and was glad to see Liz smile slightly as well, "You're my best friend and I love you. I'm sure whatever is bothering you, we can figure out together as we've always done."
Liz still felt unsure but she knew what Bri said was true. She had always been there for her right when Liz needed her the most. Liz wanted to tell her everything right then, but still felt Bri would never understand if she did. She decided to only tell the truth partially, "Well," Liz began, "as you know, I'm planning on divorcing James."
"Of course," Bri said, "I helped convince you to do it. He's an asshole." Bri knew James had come home the night before and Liz tended to essentially become his doormat whenever he was around. She liked to call him names so Liz would hopefully remember what a jerk he was to her.
"Yes, absolutely," Liz agreed immediately, "I never should have married him."
Bri was impressed, usually, Liz was the first to stand up for her lame husband, "So, what's the problem?" Bri asked, though she already knew the answer.
Liz gripped Bri's hand very tightly then, she needed strength before she could admit it, "I've, um," she still wanted to tell Bri everything but held back once again, "I've been having feelings for, um, another man."
Bri almost laughed because she knew the truth, but held back, "Liz, that's great. James has been such a loser and he's so awful to you and the kids, but especially to you. If I were in your position, I'd also be shopping around for someone else." Bri sounded incredibly easy-going about this but if she hadn't already known this probably would have shocked her, only because Liz seemed like she had a stick up her ass about anything sexual most of the time, even the suggestion of cheating on her husband would have made her run out of the room before yesterday.
Liz realized she wasn't being clear. She took her hand back from Bri as she considered how to communicate this without admitting she'd been having incestuous thoughts about her own son. She decided to take a different approach, but she knew it wasn't going to be easy, "Okay, I know we've never, um, talked about it before, um," Liz took a breath and then let it out not continuing her sentence.
"What is it, Liz?" Bri asked, but she could almost feel what was coming. She gulped with worry.
Liz took another breath before continuing, "Twenty years ago, after my parents funeral-"
Bri interrupted, not willing to hear Liz blame her before she had her say, "Liz, I'm so sorry about that. I never should have taken advantage of you. I-"
"What?" Liz said, surprised and cutting Bri off, "No! You didn't take advantage of me, I'm the one who forced myself on you!"
Bri jaw dropped open, she couldn't believe what she was hearing, "You mean to say, you thought you were to blame for that all these years?"
"I was. I mean, I am to blame." Liz insisted, "That's what I'm trying to tell you. There's a side of me I've been trying to keep hidden since that night, and have been successful at it before yesterday. It's a terrible, evil, awful side to myself and causes nothing but terrible things whenever 'she' is around." Liz's head drooped, she couldn't believe she was about to tell somebody else about this but felt she couldn't get out of it now, "I call her my 'Sex Demon,' because that's how I feel whenever she's around. It's like I'm possessed."
"Your Sex Demon?" Brianna said, just trying to wrap her brain around it, "Why do you call it that?"
Liz sighed, not really wanting to be specific but not knowing any other way to explain it, "It's because, when I'm horny, she possesses me and won't let go until, um," Liz sighed, there was no getting out of it now, "Until I have as many orgasms as it takes to make her go away. And when I'm around, um, someone who, um, turns me on. She just won't leave me alone. And now I'm...." Liz trailed off, she had gotten so flustered in her explanation she had almost revealed that she was lusting after her son, Nathan, and she still couldn't think of a way to explain that to Bri and still have her look at her like she was anything but a freak.
Bri considered this, though she really wanted to get Liz to admit everything to her, there was something that was bugging her even more, something twenty years in the making, "So when we made love all those years ago, that was because of this so-called demon taking over your body?"
