Stepping out of the shower I was still wondering if I had done all that I needed to do today. My son David would be home soon and I would talk to him then. David had been very close to his father and since his death David has acted as if I needed him around to care for me. I think his wanting to care for his mother is admirable but I am ready to move on with my life and I hope David will understand.
Mr. Gaylord from the bank asked me out for dinner and I accepted. I do so want David to understand that I am still a young woman and even though I loved his father it is time for me to live my own life once more.
I looked at my nakedness in the mirror and thought I am not that bad for a woman forty four years old. I know I still have desires and needs that are not being addressed. I masturbate some times and it gives me some relief but it is not the same as when you feel the weight on a man on you and feel his erections pulsate inside you when he fills you with that warm loving sex cream.
There is time yet I though so I went to my closet and got my handy dandy vibrator. I ordered it from a sex store on the internet. It is dark pink in color not like any cock I had ever seen. But it does have a nice shape to it and the head is just about right. I start by just rubbing it across my clitoris however as I get aroused I find I like to insert it in my wet pussy and give myself a really fucking. Once not too long ago I was really horny and I tried to insert it in my ass and with some help from Mr. K-Y I got it in me. My husband liked to fuck me in the ass once or twice a year but for the last five years of his life he did not and he has been dead now three years so it had been eight years since I had a cock up my ass and it did hurt some but the memories it evoked were worth it.
I felt the climax building and then rush out of me as if it were the first time in my life. I was thinking of Mr. Gaylord and his smile along with that hint of what he wanted if we were to date. I was not so sure I would let him get to first base on our first date but there was always that possibility. I washed Mr. Pink and returned him to his place of honor in my closet he had once again done a fine job. I even licked him with my juices still dripping from him. Maybe Mr. Gaylord would enjoy the way I having of sucking a sword. I have enjoyed sucking a man's cock for as long as I have enjoyed sex. In fact my first sex act was to have oral sex and I have loved it ever since. My first experience was with my cousin in his barn out on the farm. He teased me into sucking on a cow's teat and later had me suck his appendage till he gave me a drink of cum for the first time.
I'll remember that treat forever I loved it then and I love it still. I dressed with my sexiest silky underwear, not that I thought anyone would get to see then that night.
David arrived home and I had his dinner ready and waiting. He of course asked why I was not joining him. I told him how I felt and how I needed to move on and much to my surprise he welcomed the idea that I should start dating again. He went so far as to say I was a very beautiful woman and I should be with a man that loved me and he knew how a woman my age had needs. I was surprised by his words and for some reason there seemed to be a tone in his voice that said much more. I wondered how my son really felt about me dating again. Or was it that he was seeing himself as the man of the house now. Maybe David was jealous, I wondered.
Ned Gaylord pulled in the driveway right on time. He handed me flowers which I put in water. David came down from his room and I introduced him to Mr. Gaylord. With few words they shook hands.
Ned was a real fine looking man. He was also a widower and he had a daughter Nancy a couple of years older than my David. Nancy lived at home also but for different reasons. She had been in an auto accident which left her with a disfigured leg and a bad limp. She worked out of the family home doing computer work. As I remembered her she was a very pretty girl tall slim with a wide bright smile. I wondered if David might enjoy meeting her. I knew of course David was seeing that blonde slut from the bar out on the highway. But he just might enjoy meeting a nice girl for a change.
Ned applied all his charm and we talked about our family histories and in words compared our life styles of the past. It seemed we had a lot in common both in the way we feel about our children and how we feel about our dearly departed spouses.
We went to a nice quite out of the way road house to have a few drinks in a dark corner. Ned has a way with words and he seemed hell bent on seeing me naked before the night was over. He kissed me and slipped his hand up along my thigh under my dress. I did not stop him as I wanted to see just how far he would go. But I knew a man is a man. If you don't say "NO" at lest twice they think it is ok to move on to new horizons. Well I did not say "NO" and Ned soon had a finger rubbing my crotch. Ned kissed my neck and said "Lydia you got a great body. You are a beautiful woman; you are everything a man could want in a woman."