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Chapter 5 - The Cat's Out Of The Bag.
After I was dropped off at home by Simon, I remembered that I hadn't held this much cold cash at one time since my working days. It's not that I hadn't seen money before, because I've held substantially more money than this; however, I've always dealt with cheques.
I was nervous about this $1500 for a couple of reasons: firstly, I didn't want to carry so much around, for security reasons; secondly, if I banked it all at one time or spread out in smaller amounts over time, it might seem suspicious! I knew from experience that banks were extra sensitive about withdrawing or depositing 'large' amounts of money. Usually, this meant anything over $ 500. But, I decided to use a bank machine and put in $ 300 dollars. I had a guilty, sinking feeling of depositing money that I wasn't intending to declare for tax, but there was no way that the government was going to tax me for what I did for this money. I had essentially whored myself out for it to seven guys, whether I wanted to or not. The money, therefore, felt a whole lot more personal.
I arrived home safely, with still an excessive amount of money, particularly because I had withdrawn a couple of hundred dollars beforehand for use on groceries. I decided to keep most of the money in a box, in the space between my drawers. I hoped to use it up somehow, before I'd lose them somehow.
Despite being with an outrageous amount of men in one night, I felt very happy that I was continually discovering the raw power of sex and how much it was changing me. I was learning more about myself, but I didn't feel bad. I was past the point of no return and completely irredeemable. I was a wife, with her wedding ring still on, that was uncontrollably wet almost all the time, especially in the mornings. I masturbated regularly, using toys or not. I looked at porn. I almost considered going for a hook-up with a complete stranger, but I didn't want to take any chances with the sexual diseases that were out there, if I could help it.
Fortunately, Jimmy gave me the amazing sex that I needed, with each frequent visit that he or I made at our respective homes. At this point, he rarely needed to tell me how to do things better now. I made sure that I always did my best. Gradually, he'd stay over for the night on most nights. He'd make breakfast for me in the mornings or he'd take me out for dinners. We had great conversations and had numerous shared interests: he loved cooking and I loved baking, so it wasn't uncommon for us to be in the kitchen together; and we loved to exercise together, as he'd have me do a little bit of lifting, while I made him do a little bit of running. It seemed like we were a couple.
Although he had mentioned in his first email that his background was in construction, he said he was sorry for deceiving me on what his career was, which wasn't in the construction industry, though that was his hobby, rather than marriage counselling! Regardless, I didn't fault him completely. For all the lies that he told me in the past, I forgave him because of the attention and care that he gave to me now, despite him being some ten years younger than I was. Besides, I could understand the difficulty in telling strangers, especially women, that your line of work was in the seedy business of pornography! I
Yet, after I was formally introduced to his studio, the relationship felt like it was forbidden or taboo, in the same sense like an employer and employee one. We didn't act out our feelings with each other at work. In fact, I didn't even start out as a 'star', like he declared that I was. Instead, he had me employed as a fluffer, because Jimmy couldn't have a say over who was being casted, but he still wanted me to be familiarized to the industry in general, which could later convince his producers to cast me in! He assured me that I'd 'only need to do it for a week or two'.
I knew what the job involved. As part of the "makeup department" on sets, it was my primary duty to keep the men hard with my hands and mouth, in the background, so that they would be ready on camera for their gang-bang scenes! I was very confident that I could do the job, especially if it was only for a week or two. It'd be fun!
Actually, I'd end up doing that for two months! When I started, I was gradually adjusting to working with an overwhelming number of penises that innumerably varied in length, girth and appearance. At first, it was fun, as I had expected, but it was also very repetitious and very impersonal. Countless men came and went after using me. Occasionally, when time permitted, I was asked to masturbate in front of them, sometimes using vibrators and other toys. Other times, I helped distribute water and paper towels. There was no doubt that I learned a lot, but I frequently pushed for answers from Jimmy on when I was going to be doing something else, as he had promised. He kept telling me to keep up the good work, as I was being noticed.
Outside of work, our relationship remained strong. We had our date nights. He satisfied my urges all the time. He knew my situation, inside and out β no pun intended. I knew his too, the same. He was upfront about what he was doing. He told me ahead of time whenever he was going to have sex with other women. He didn't need to, considering I knew full well what I was getting into, in knowing him, but his policy was that communication was always better than not. I was surprisingly grateful that he was honest.