Eyes in the dark, who watch me so,
Gift me flames to quench my woe.
Fight for love and love for blood,
Lest dearest sibling`s soul forgot.
Translated Gaelic chant, circa 1269
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"Fi, are you trying to break a leg?"
The question rung out louder than I`d meant across the forest. The trees had an unnerving way of distorting sound. My sister Fiona turned around on the log after regaining her balance.
"Don`t be so grumpy, Liam," she replied with that unbearable smile, which had been plastered on her face since leaving the hotel. "Aren`t you excited to see dad again?"
I groaned inwardly, but drew in a deep breath and tried to exhale my frustration.
"You know that`s not how it works, right?"
"Of course it is, dummy." She rolled her eyes as I stepped up next to her, "I`m a lot stronger than last year, and even then I could already feel his presence. This year I just know I can do it."
A sad, little smile tugged at my lips. Those last words were so like Fi. Even years after our father`s passing, she`d never lost that spark of hope and optimism. Of course she`d grieved, but where others would`ve accepted that their loved one was gone, Fiona was positive she could find a way to reunite us again.
So here we were... Hiking in the ancient woods of Ireland, on the final day of October, trying to reach out to a lost soul.
"Tell me again how this is supposed to work, sis, `cause I still don`t think I get it."
"Gosh, you`re dense sometimes," she said, mirth tinting her voice.
She collected her thoughts, making me wait for the explanation, while we continued to make our way through the forest, guided only by an old compass Fiona claimed would guide us.
"So, Samhain, the pagan festival, better known as All Hallows Eve or Halloween, is the time of the year where the veil between the mortal world and the spirit world is... flexible, right?"
She took a few quick breaths, checking our heading with the compass.
"In order to contact and interact with the spirit world you need a priest or priestess...," she waved her hand in an encompassing gesture, indicating herself, "...to perform a ritual summoning and draw the attention of the Sidhe."
"And who is this 'she' again?"
"It`s not a 'she', it`s the Sidhe, spelled s-i-d-h-e." She explained impatiently.
"Aha... And what, exactly, does that have to do with dad?" I asked skeptically.
"Well," Fiona drawled, "the Sidhe are renowned for making deals, and since dad was Irish and souls are kind of theirs after death..."
She rolled a hand to indicate that I should finish the thought.
"Which means we can make a deal for, what, his ghost?" My eyebrow drew up in an expression of doubt as I put a mocking emphasis on the last word.
Fiona sighed, fluttering the front of her hoodie in an attempt to cool herself. A hint of exasperation or doubt entered her voice. "I don`t know, Li... something, at least."
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We trudged along in silence, following an old, haggard trail for a while.
Despite it being autumn, the forest hadn`t given up on summer. Seeming to cling onto its warmth as if to a lover`s arms. Desperately trying to hold on, knowing full well the embrace would end. For us that meant that because we`d dressed for colder weather, the trek had left us sweaty and sticky.
The heavy packs we carried didn`t make the hike any easier, as we`d seen fit to pack for a night of camping.
We stopped walking for a moment, looking at each other and trying to ignore our quickened breathing. The fresh scent of pine trees filled my lungs.
I saw the determination in my her eyes, then. The same resolve that had convinced me to take a few days off work, book us a flight to Northern Ireland and arrange a room in a countryside hotel.
Fiona wasn`t going to back down.
"Alright."
Her lips curled up in a grin, "yeah?"
I couldn`t resist her stupid, infectious optimism, so I let out a sigh of defeat and smiled back.
"Yeah."
"Well, get a move on, then." She slapped my ass playfully.
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We walked for another half hour as the sun slowly set behind the horizon. The dense forest filtered out the remaining light to a few thin rays.
"How much farther, Fi? This place is starting to give me the creeps."
My younger sister`s eyes glance down to the compass. "Shouldn`t be long now."
"The fact that you`re not using a map kind of worries me." I said. "How do you even know that we`re going in the right direction?"
"Because..."
She started to speak, but stopped as we rounded a crowded stand of trees. In front of us lay a large clearing. The purple sky overhead was dotted with faintly visible stars, as I took in the sight of a massive rock formation in the middle of the glade.
"Because the compass started spinning," Fiona finished in a whisper, her eyes fixed on the stone pile.
"Come on." She took my hand and together we stepped out beyond the tree line, walking straight to the structure while taking in our surroundings.
"Isn`t it beautiful, Liam?"
Her hushed words perfectly matched the haunting atmosphere. Everything was quiet, almost making the clearing feel like a holy place. Which I supposed it was... once upon a time.
We reached the strange rocks in the center of the glade after four dozen strides.
"What is..."
Upon closer inspection of the hewn slabs I noticed runes running along the length and sides, the top covered with a thick layer of moss. It was easily four yards in diameter as we walked around it. The stone formation seemed like a vast, raised...
"A table," Fiona said.
"An altar" I corrected.
We stood there, momentarily perplexed by having actually found the ritualistic remnants of an ancient festival.
It seemed so... surreal.
Fiona broke the reverent silence first. "Let`s get to work, Li. We don`t have long before the sun sets completely."
I looked up at the stars and indeed noticed the blanket of dark blue replacing the violet shades of twilight.
"Okay, what do you want me to do?"
"Gather some wood to make a fire. We need enough to light four big ones."
Setting my pack down against the rocks I turned to go, as she grinned mischievously.
"And try not to wake the dead, Liam." She oscillated her voice, making it sound like she was telling an old timey ghost story.
I didn`t dignify that with a response, instead giving her the finger and a smirk, before making my way to the trees, hand axe at the ready.
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It might have been my imagination, but as I cut down the last bundle of dry branches, Fiona`s words seemed to get to me.