Anger
It was very windy, almost too windy to sail, so after wrestling with their twenty-four footer for a short while, they lowered the sails, drifted into a cove and dropped anchor to eat a late lunch.
Brad and Lisa had been talking constantly about pretty much nothing, while Cassie sat quietly as close to Brad as she could. She liked being able to finally touch him again, after having willed herself to stay away for the past month. Lisa was tender, and comfortable, but Brad made her feel safe, and desirable, and at home.
The wind repeatedly, mischievously blew a slice of bread away from Brad as he struggled to make a sandwich. He kept catching it and putting it back, over and over. It was almost a comedy routine. Finally Cassie reached out to help, holding it down with one finger tip.
"I can do that myself," Brad snapped at her.
His tone and reaction caught her off guard. She felt hurt. He leaned across the seat over Cassie's lap for the mayonnaise, but couldn't quite reach it. Lisa was nearby, but didn't notice, so Cassie picked it up and handed it to him.
He accepted it with a grunt.
She didn't know why he was angry. He didn't have any reason to be angry at her. She was just helping him. She didn't usually. She let him help her. But it felt like she needed to, now. She had to do more for him than just let him fuck her, or else she was just a whore. She had to be his little sister, too.
She loved the way he fucked her, she loved the feeling. She certainly came a lot, more than any other time in her life. Not that she was Miss Experience.
But she didn't want to do it for that, to fuck, just for herself, just to climax. She did it to make him feel good. The sex was all, or mostly, to make him feel good, to make him come. It almost wasn't for her at all, she'd realized, and that made her a whore. Whore's have sex just for the guys, not for themselves.
She couldn't stand thinking of herself as a whore, but it's what she was.
She tried again, reaching into the cooler to grab a deep purple plumb, the best one, placing it beside his sandwich. Brad liked fruit, and this batch of plumbs was unusually good. If she could, she'd keep them all to herself.
Brad scowled at her. "Thanks," he said, almost with a another grunt.
That was it, that was all.
Cassie sighed, giving up for now, focusing instead on preparing her own lunch. She grew angry herself. He was just in a bad mood. Now she was, too.
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Brad didn't know why she had to be so nice all of a sudden. He was raping her every day. Yes, she liked it, obviously, and she wanted it, but it was still rape.
They didn't touch or kiss, they didn't act like lovers. They just fucked. He fucked her. She lay there for him, and he put his cock in her and did whatever he wanted until he came inside her. He couldn't stop himself. He had no control. He had to fuck her, and he did with complete abandon.
He was a rapist, an incestuous rapist.
And now she was being nice to him in response. It made him feel like a monster, guilty and manipulative and horrible.
Abruptly, he abandoned his lunch, as hungry as he was. He angrily pulled his shirt off to dive into the water to swim, punishing himself by refusing to eat. He stayed under as long as he could, swimming away from the boat and Cassie. He punished himself further by holding his breath to the point of bursting, until finally succumbing and breaking the surface to take in air in one great gasp.
Out of the corner of his eye he could see Cassie looking at him from the boat, her face creased with worry. That made him feel even worse. He swam further away.
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The next evening, the family had gathered together to watch a DVD. There was a sudden explosion, followed by a cacophony of machine gun fire. One of the lead characters made a dry, witty comment in the midst of the chaos, and everyone laughed. Cassie looked around the room at all of their faces. They all seemed to be into it, even Aimee and Tara. Everyone except Cassie and Brad.
Cassie looked long and hard at Brad, being sure to catch his eye. He stared back. After a short while, once she was sure he understood, Cassie stood up and walked out of the room, not looking back. She turned and headed up the stairs. She let herself cast one, quick glance at him again as she ascended. He was looking at her. She knew he would follow her again.
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