Happy New Year folks!
And what a new year it has been!
Readers who read my last story would be knowing that I have had been having some problems in the relationship with my mother. We started our incestuous liaisons back when I turned 18. I have had been having thoughts about my future, whether I want to get married down the line and have a "normal relationship" and whether what I am doing with my mother right now is in my best interests. I was battling these thoughts day in and day out until one of the most memorable nights in my life changed the entire course of what I had been thinking about.
Let me clarify. Mom gave me a wonderful surprise on my 22nd birthday by engaging in some incredible sex with me. But, even after that wonderful sexual episode, my mind kept on venturing on about thoughts about my future. Mom knew all of this quite well. After all, she is my mom. But she didn't confront me about it probably for the fear of how I would react. But sooner or later that mantle had to be broken.
That day came on 31st December 2012. I didn't have any great plans for the last night of the year so I decided to sit back at home, curl up in a blanket and watch a good movie. Mom, on the other hand did have plans to go out with some of her friends for some drinking (which is still prohibited but widely tolerated in Ahmedabad) but that plan had come to naught because there was fear of police raids to curb illegal drinking. Mom and her friends thought it would be too risky so they postponed the drinking program to some future date. Obviously, she wasn't happy that her new year eve plans were trashed. In fact she was quite irritable that day. Add to the fact that dad had to go to Mumbai on 29th for an emergency meeting with some of his clients who had arrived unannounced from London.
Mom was sitting in the living room after dinner watching some run down Star World soap when I came by to tell her that I was planning to retire early to my room, watch a movie and just go to sleep afterwards. She looked up at me with a strange look which honestly speaking, I didn't like. She seemed to be in pain, like something was eating her from within. But she couldn't speak up at first.
I thought she would cry, but then adjusted herself on the sofa and looked at me with a calm, composed look. Then, she started talking.
She told me she knew that I was thinking about my current relationship with her and the future of our relationship together. She confessed to be thinking about it herself too as she didn't want to jeopardize my future by clinging on to me. She said she loved me like a son and as a lover but more importantly, she just enjoyed the taboo nature of our relationship and the sex that we had been indulging in for the last four years.
I was startled. I knew mom loved me as a son and also as a lover but I didn't know she loved the sex more! But in a strange way, it all made sense. Generally, in a relationship involving a young man with a much older woman, it would normally be the guy who would crave for and initiate sex. But, in my case, it was almost always my mom who initiated sex. She was and continues to be insatiable. I agreed on the part where the sheer taboo of it made the sex amazing.
I asked her what "solution" she had to our predicament here. It was obvious we loved each other and the sex, but we needed to formulate some plan for the future. Things as usual could not continue indefinitely.
Mom said I was free to go out and get as many girl friends as I liked. She didn't want to interfere in that aspect of my life. She didn't mind giving me the sexual freedom that people for her generation had always clamoured for but never got. She had even confessed to me one night after love making that she had always wanted sexual freedom but could never get it in our moribund society. She didn't mind me falling in love with someone else and making a good life for myself with her. She was my mother and always wanted my happiness above all.
There were only two conditions. One, I had to continue having sex with her till she desired even if it was behind closed doors and in the future, behind my wife's back. Second, she wanted me to experiment in bed with her. She had a lot of curiosity of the sexual kind and had always wanted to get 'groovy' with someone she trusted. That someone was obviously me.
Listening to this was sort of making my head spin. I didn't realize the amount of love and desire that my mom had. Love for me and desire for sex. She was prepared to leave me to my machinations but only if she got the 'loving' that she had so desperately craved for. This might seem fucked up to many but in my view, this was unbridled passion. A kind of passion that only a mother and son in a loving relationship like ours could comprehend and appreciate. Also, it was a convenient arrangement for me. I would get to fuck both, my future wife and my mother. Boy, I was a fucking pervert!