This story has a long build up so if that's not what you like thanks for looking it up but I'd suggest to try something else.
What I'm about to tell you I don't even know if it happened for sure. My name is Swaroop. I was told my mom wanted to name me that, unfortunately I don't remember her. She died when I was just over one year old. My dad had little to do with raising me. Not cause he didn't want to, but cause he didn't know how to. But he made sure he had all the help he needed from his four sister in laws/ my aunts. They had little say in it as my dad was the eldest of the five brothers. So this meant that there was always enough female presence in our house. We were not exactly a joint family my aunts would come and go as needed, but then there was my sister Prerna. She is three years older to me. She remembers mom, in fact she was the one who insisted I was named Swaroop as that is what my mom used to call me when I was in the womb.
I and my sister are poles-apart. She is happy being the pretty, popular girl in town with her army of friends and hordes of admirers. I'm the silent loner who has no friends and most kids my age are afraid to talk to me because I'm much bigger than them and always carry this fucked-up look on my face. Basically my sister and my aunts are the only people that I interact with properly, and don't care what anyone else thinks of me. When in college my sister used to drag me to class every day. Maybe she felt safe with me fending off boys who kept drooling on her, so I was an escort/bodyguard to her and her friends. But I knew I had nowhere else to go and not really much to do. Turning 21 was rough on me; after I graduated B.Com and didn't know what to do with my time. Then suddenly one day the entire extended family i.e. my uncles, all my aunts and most of my cousins descended on our house. Later that day I came to know that we were going on pilgrimage.
As our tour started I realized how little I knew my cousins and that I liked them even less. I guess Prerna was feeling the same way, as the tour went on she kept her distance from the cousins and aunts and often paired with me everywhere we went. On the last leg of the tour another family joined us -they were apparently distant relatives whom my uncle had invited- as we headed to a temple they visited often. This family has just three members dad, mom and son. The guy was older than me but my large physic made look younger. But that was also the case with my sister and so I never really gave it a second thought. Anyways as our tour ended we spent an evening at the family's place and the guy invited me to his room. There we talked for a while and then came out on to a ledge from where we directly saw where my sister and cousins were sitting with my youngest aunt.
Suddenly the guy made a comment on my sister and said how beautiful she was. I didn't see the point in replying so just kept quite. He felt the need to explain, "Now I can see why she has that image." Now I was little bit angry and stared at him, he chuckled nervously and explained that his friends at our college had said something about her. I felt the need to defend her name and so retaliated, "Well you shouldn't believe everything you hear. In fact she is the greatest. My mother died when I was very young and she has been the mother for me in more ways than one. I guess that doesn't show on her pretty face or your friends don't seem to notice it, do they?" he tried to claim me, "I never said they were right. But you made a piont, 'Never judge a book by its cover' right?" I just shrugged his comment and went to join my family who were ready to leave.
Back home I didn't give much thought to what had happened over the past three weeks, neither good nor bad. I just kept accompanying my sister on her trips to the town and cinemas as she was going out almost every other day with her friend Ramya. One day when we returned from the market Ramya pulled my sister into her room and I went to see if my dad was in the backyard. Suddenly my sister called me to her upstairs room. When I entered Ramya was holding my sister's had and looking straight down while my sister kept looking at her and me before she said, "Okay, I have given you many chances to talk to him but... nothing." She looked at me once more before she turned back to her and continued, "This is your last chance. Tell him." I was quite confused as my sister emphasized, "Everything!". Ramya slowly lifted her gaze to meet mine and started "I told your sist..." her voice broken so she stopped and then started again. "Do you like me?" I didn't quite understand the gravity of that question. "Yeah sure, I guess I like you." I said glancing over once to look at Prerna.
They looked at each other and turned back towards me. Ramya continued "Why is that you like me?" at that time I thought that that was a stupid question. "Cause you are my sister's best friend." I said not realizing my answer was that stupid. Ramya sighed heavily and sat on the cot as Prerna joined her. "He doesn't even understand me, how is he going to love me?" Ramya said referring to me. Only know I understood what was going on and as I replayed the entire conversation in my mind I let out a small chuckle. This might have hurt a little, so Ramya left with her eyes almost watering up. Prerna ran after her and caught her at the stairs they spoke in a low voice and Prerna consoled her and brought her back. Ramya now with a slight hush in her voice said "I really like you. I have for quite some time now. I had a very difficult time convincing your sister of my love for you..." she paused, "... all I want to say is that doesn't matter if this is wrong or weird. All I care is if you love me?" she looked up straight into my eyes as she finished and in a moment was again staring at the floor. The way she said whatever she just did made me realize that she might have practiced this speech many times. As I cautiously made my way up to her I took in the visual of her standing there in front of the door, how the silhouette ran across her physic accentuating her full and sexy figure. Just as I came up close to her I glanced at my sister before I spoke softly trying to make sure I was going to say the right thing "All this time when you were looking at me with your heart filled with love..." I paused as she looked back into my eyes. "I had nothing but the utmost respect and admiration for you. Just as I do for my sister." She let out a gasp as though she was choking on the thought of me calling her a sister. "But love knows no bounds, right?" she gently nodded, "I have never had any romantic feelings for you. How could I? If I lusted for my sister's friends it would be the worst betrayal on my part. I can't hurt her. Not even if she insisted!" both of them looked at me a little confused as to where I was headed. "If you want my answer at this very moment then I'm sorry." I waited I while before I continued. "But if you are willing to wait for some time I can think about it and let you know if my mind changes." I felt proud having dodged this bullet. As I made my way out of the room I just knew Ramya would plead to my sister to try and convince me but I had already made up my mind.
That evening I saw Ramya leave and for the first time noticed the way she looked at me and realized that if only I felt otherwise maybe she would be willing to satisfy all my needs. But I guess it just didn't feel right for me. After dinner Prerna called me to her room. There she played her favorite song at that time on the comp and sat on the bed. I just pulled the chair and sat to her left facing the cot.
"Thanks ra." she said.
"For what?" was all I asked.
"For not making a scene with Ramya and being my sweet little tammudu{bro}." I just chuckled.
"Okay ra are you going to accept her love?" I knew we were headed down this path.
"See akka, when you two put me in that situation, I did what I thought was the best way to control it. But I am telling you now what I will tell her later and always, my mind will not change." She gave me a look that was curios to say the least.
"So whatever you said was all just a lie to control the situation?" she exclaimed. That is when I replayed mornings events in my mind and realized the line 'I can never hurt her!' so I tried to save myself.
"Well when I said I can't hurt you I meant it in the sincerest. That is why I'm telling you that no woman other that you has any place in my heart." She regained the lovely proud look.
"You say that know but tomorrow when I go to my husband's place you will not even remember me."
"Well then there is nothing to worry about, just don't get married and stay with me and dad forever." I said with a slight grin.
