It hadn't been one of those messy breakups that you hear about on soaps, or in woman's magazines, actually after 20 years of marriage we had just grown apart. It was a gradual thing, slowly over the years I had changed but my husband didn't want to change with me. I found as I entered my 30s that I wanted to try things, open my mind to new ideas, experiment and live a little. I felt that now our son was no longer a baby and he wasn't so dependant on me that I could think about myself for a change, do things that I wanted to do. He was almost eighteen so I thought it would be good if Jim and I went out more because we no longer needed a sitter, thought it would be good for our marriage to 'date' each other like we used to. But Jim seemed to want to just stay at home and watch TV, it was like he was ready to retire already and I felt like I just found a new lease on life.
So I started going out with my girlfriends instead. I would ask him again and again if he wanted to go see a movie or go clubbing or anything but he would just say it was a waste of money when we could watch a DVD at home and he didn't like the same music as I did so I kept going out with 'the girls' and after awhile I just stopped asking him.
I was having a great time going out, sometimes with a group of girlfriends and sometimes just with my best friend Maggie. I was feeling like a teenager again and as Maggie had split with her husband a few years ago, she never had to worry about getting home early. We had been best friends since high school and were always close but then after a night out and drinking a little too much our friendship took another step. One minute we were laughing and being silly on the couch talking about which guys we thought in the club we had just come from were fuck-able, and the next we were kissing. Not really sure what I said or inferred but suddenly Maggie just kissed me on the lips and I didn't push her away or freak out, I just kissed her back and then it was full on.....pashing and groping. Her hand was on my breast squeezing it as she kissed me. And that was how it all started, our girls nights out carried on but after each night on the town we ended up back at Maggie's and I discovered I enjoyed her more than the boring predictable sex I got at home.
My husband was starting to get annoyed at me always going out but when I said to him ok come out with me, there would always be some excuse. I didn't want to stop going out and I didn't want give up my love affair with Maggie either and with so many arguments we both agreed that we were just too different from each other now and decided to separate. Jim worked long hours so without going through the courts and having to drag our son through a nasty divorce we just worked it out ourselves and we agreed it would be better if Josh stayed with me during the week and stayed with his dad on the weekends we shared the school holidays. Neither of us wanted to disrupt his school routine and wanted to make things as stress less as possible for him. Jim earned good money and had agreed to give me enough so that we could live well. Through it all we were still friends but realized we had just grown apart and were too different from each other now. Josh took the news pretty well, I'm sure he was upset but just went quiet and of course he had heard all of our arguments so it wasn't that much of a surprise.
I stopped going out every night not wanting to leave Josh home alone, instead Maggie would come over every night and we would go out Friday and Saturday nights when Josh was at his dads. I hadn't told Jim about my affair with Maggie, in fact no one knew I was bi, so when Maggie came over every night we would just watch a movie and talk while Josh was up and then after he went to bed we would make love in the privacy of my room.
I was enjoying my new life, sex with Maggie was incredible compared to what I had been used to and I finally didn't feel like I was being held back from being the person I truly was, I could just be myself all the time. Luckily Josh liked the same type of music I did so I always had it up loud and it was so good not having to hear complaints about it as Jim didn't share my taste in music. As well as getting closer with Maggie, I was spending a lot more time with Josh and once we all settled into our new routine we started getting on really well. Josh could see I was a lot happier now and more fun, I wasn't always on his back about stuff. I treated him more like an adult and an equal. I even let him have some friends around for a small party for his 18th birthday and as a show of my trust, I went out for the evening with Maggie. I could tell he really appreciated me giving him some space. I felt like we were closer now than we had ever been.
I'm not sure when Josh started to realize what was going on between us, but then he was 18 now and not stupid. I guess he started putting things together; little things like Maggie would sometimes playfully smack my butt as she walked past, or we would both comment on how hot we thought Halle Berry was while watching her in a movie. Perhaps it was how we would always have a spa together or maybe just our body language. But once he was suspicious there was more than just a great friendship going on, he decided to try and catch us out. He would sneak out when we thought he was sound asleep and we were watching a movie. Not sure just how many times he might of overheard us or seen us embrace as often we would kiss and touch while on the couch before we made it to my bed.
Unbeknown to us this became my sons source of masturbation material, instead of being shocked and disgusted at the thought of his mother being with another woman, it turned him on big time and after sneaking a peek at us or standing in the hallway outside my bedroom door listening to our love making, Josh would go back to his bed and masturbate and cum thinking about it.
My sex life with Maggie was great, she was kinky and we did things that I had never done before but I was loving it, taking in all the new experiences like a sponge and craving more. Jim had never wanted anything more than a blow job and vaginal sex, he didn't even give me oral sex very often, but my wild girlfriend tried everything with me. She didn't just lick my pussy, she would carry on and lick all way along my ass crack and tongue-fuck my asshole too and put her fingers inside both my holes at once. I had never felt such intense pleasure and she made me cum again and again night after night. She also introduced me to her strap on dildo and I loved it, we would take turns on using on each other. I felt naughty and kinky but so alive when I was with her that I wanted her to move in and live with me permanently but I wasn't sure how Josh would take the news of finding out his mother was bi.
I decided it was best to just sit him down and talk straight with him, even though Josh had only recently turned eighteen, he was mature for his age and I had treated him as an adult ever since my separation. So I thought I would just discuss the situation with him and see if he would be ok with Maggie moving in. I hadn't asked Maggie yet because if Josh reacted badly then I wouldn't ask her. Of course I loved Maggie very much, but my son had to come first. Josh was unpacking his backpack after being at his dads for the weekend, when I came into his room.
"Hi Josh. How was your weekend?"
"Oh hi mum. Yeah it was ok, just hung around and played play station with dad." he replied, looking up and giving me a smile.
He really had grown up to be a good looking young man, I couldn't help thinking to myself as I smiled back at him, sitting down on his bed.
"Josh, I need to talk to you about something really important. Can you sit down here next to me for a minute?"
"Sure mum." and he sat down looking right into my eyes.
My mind wandering again, I noticed how sexy and haunting my son's eyes are, then scolded myself in my head telling myself to focus on the task at hand.
"Josh, its kind of hard for me to talk to you about this sort of thing, but um...well since your dad and I broke up...I um....." hesitating and finding it hard to look him in the eye "Well, how can I say this......I have needs son and um well....."
"You mean sex mum? Is that what you're trying to say?" Josh said in a matter of fact way.
I blushed a little "Yes. What I'm trying to say is that......"
"That you need sex?" said Josh, interrupting me "Does that mean you are going to start dating again mum?"
"No. Well sort of um, well its just that I want to have sex with someone that I love very much but a lot of people would think is wrong and we would have to keep it a secret from everyone else." as a sign of reassurance I put my hand on Josh's leg, I was doing it as a symbol of trust and closeness but unknowingly I was sending him the wrong message.
Josh smiled and moved closer to me. I was trying to tell him about me and Maggie but all he heard in his mind was that I wanted to fuck him. He thought the fantasies that he had masturbated over many times were about to come true.
"You mean you want to fuck m....." he was about to say me, but I interrupted.
"Maggie.....yes I love her and I want to know if it's alright with you if she moves in?" I thought I was finishing his sentence but I was wrong.
