When I was twenty I was immortal, convinced that I would live forever. The world was mine to conquer. At thirty I was a lot less ambitious, and more realistic, knowing that my time on earth was limited, but I knew that I still had plenty of decades ahead of me. However, forty was a reality check, and it shocked me.
Shortly after that milestone birthday I was seriously ill, and I almost died. Eventually I recovered, but it was a wake-up call for me. It made me realize that I might only have a few years left, and that I should make the most of them.
That's when I decided to make a bucket list!
I spent the weekend doing it. When I'd finished I was pleased with myself. It was ambitious, but it was achievable. Since my divorce two years ago, my life had lacked purpose. Now I had something to strive for, something to look forward to.
For the next year it was my hobby, and I took great delight in crossing things off the list.
The beach holiday in Bali had exceeded my expectations. It was an amazing place. And trekking in the Amazon rainforest was a trip of a lifetime. But when I was back at home, alone in my bed, I felt that there was something missing in my life. That's when I amended my bucket list. Some things were deleted, replaced by things that I really wanted to do.
Those additions were women that I wanted to sleep with. Then, with a new zeal, I set about achieving those goals.
My first attempt was a disaster. I wanted to have sex with a stranger on a train. I thought that I'd been charming, and that she was enjoying my flirting. But I was wrong, and when I suggested that she should join me in the toilet, the look on her face told me that I'd made a big mistake. After profusely apologizing, I got off at the next station.
As soon as I got home I took another look at my list. Sex with a stranger on a train? That had been stupid. I'd had a lucky escape, she might have called the police. I put a line through it. There were others that needed to be crossed out as well. A threesome with identical twins was never going to happen. And as for joining the mile high club, that was pure fantasy.
When I'd finished it was a shorter list, but I could have pruned it even more. I'd kept some things on it that should really be deleted. However, just seeing them on the list excited me, so I was reluctant to remove them. One of them was Aunty Jessica, my Mother's younger sibling.
She was sixty one, but you could believe that she was at least ten years younger. Always smartly dressed, and her manners were impeccable. She might only be a small woman, but she cast a large shadow. An imposing person. She excited me, and frightened me, in equal measures!
For the next month, my bucket list was the last thing on my mind. I was working day and night on a project that had a tight deadline. I wasn't complaining, I liked the work and it paid well, but I was relieved when it was over and I'd got my life back.
That's when I got a call, and it was completely unexpected.
"Tyson, it's your Aunty. I have some business to attend to near you. I'll be staying with you for a few days."
There was no need for her to introduce herself, because there was no mistaking her voice and mannerisms. If I was a man, I would have asked her when that was, to see if it was convenient, but with her I was a mouse.
"Yes Aunty."
Two days later she was with me.
"Be a dear and get my things from the car."
I did, and carrying in the suitcases nearly broke my back. She was supposed to be staying for just a week, but it looked as if she'd packed for at least a month.
"You can stay in your bedroom, I'll sleep in the spare room."
It was my house, and I was supposed to be in charge, but I knew my place. I should be grateful that she hadn't demanded that I stay in a hotel so that she could have the place to herself.
"Thank you Aunty."
While we were watching television together I thought about my bucket list. She was on it, and coincidentally, she was here with me now. That made having her a possibility. But should I try? Then I thought about that unfortunate incident on the train, it had been so embarrassing, but I knew that rejection by my Aunty would be much worse than that. While staying calm, she'd give me a tongue-lashing that would reduce me to tears. I gave a little shudder. She would stay on my list, because I wanted her, but getting her was never going to happen.
The next day, while we were having our evening meal, she surprised me.
"Gerard is no longer in my life. I asked him to leave."
"Why?"
I could see the anguish on her face, but she quickly composed herself. When she spoke again it was if she was talking about something that was trivial.
"He was cheating on me."
I was impressed. I didn't think that he had it in him. He'd been completely under her thumb. Perhaps, one day, he'd just had enough. Like most powerful women, she turned me on, and I wanted to fuck her, but I didn't want to live with her. That would be a nightmare.
"And it was with a woman that was completely unsuitable. She was half his age. An exotic dancer with breasts that were obscenely large."
When she then said, "Don't you agree?" I nodded, but that was just to keep her happy. For a man of his age, who had been living with my Aunty for ten years, she was just what he needed. If I was to see him again then I'd shake his hand!
"I do miss him."
I could tell that she really did, and I was starting to feel sorry for her.
"He used to rub my feet, and I liked that."
Without thinking, I blurted out, "I can do that for you."
The look I got from her was as if I'd asked if I could put my hand inside her panties. Then, probably because she realized that I was only trying to be helpful, she smiled.
"It was nice of you to offer, but I don't think it would be appropriate."
I must learn to keep my mouth shut. One day it's going to be the death of me.
When we'd finished eating we went to the lounge to watch a film.
For the next hour and a half we didn't talk, because both of us were enjoying it. But when it ended, she surprised me again, by saying, "You can rub my feet."
Before, doing it had been inappropriate, but now, for some reason, it wasn't. However, I wasn't going to point that out to her. She'd changed her mind, and I had as well. I didn't want to do it. I was tired and I wanted to go to bed. But that wasn't an option.
"Yes Aunty."
To do that I had to sit next to her on the sofa. She then put her legs onto my lap.
Her feet were dainty, not much bigger than a child's. And her skin was soft. I'd been reluctant, but now I was enjoying it. When I looked at her, and she returned my smile, I knew that she was enjoying it as well.
The next television programme was a documentary about the Mafia. It was riveting. Full of intrigue and double-crossing. I was fully immersed in it, and that was why my hand had got to where it was now without me noticing. It was high up on her calf, near to her knee. Why hadn't she stopped me? I quickly removed it.
"Please put it back, I was enjoying it."
I did, and when it was on her, she parted her legs. I gulped, I could almost see her panties. There was now blood flowing into my cock. I didn't know what to do. Were her actions deliberate, to entice me, or were they just accidental? I desperately wanted to move my hand up, for it to go between her legs, but I was a rabbit caught in the headlights.
"Gerard used to rub my thighs, I liked that."