This was humiliating.
Here he was in a sterile white room surrounded by porn magazines. Beside him was a little plastic cup that was still empty. He was stalling. Was this the very best that he could do?
Yeah it was. As a twenty year old kid paying his own way through college, he was literally down to his last twenty dollar bill. Since his parents brought in a decent income, he wasn't eligible for financial aid even though they weren't giving him a cent. He had also goofed off a bit too much in high school to be eligible for scholarships.
He had signed up for the sperm donor program last year, and it had taken months to jump through all the medical hoops. The doctors were leery about allowing a college student join the program. Who knew what kind of sexual diseases and drugs he could be using to taint his body while partying on the weekends. The only reason they accepted him was because he was tall, handsome, smart, and completely virgin.
It wasn't as if girls had never approached him. They giggled and wanted to see if he had a date for the school dance or something, but he had never been interested in attending those events. Besides, he thought they just wanted some eye candy instead of getting to know him.
Although he had good looks, he was socially awkward. Being a wiz at programming wasn't good for your popularity. On top of that, girls made him particularly nervous. He hadn't found the right girl that he wanted to give his virginity to yet, but even if he did find her, he probably wouldn't have the guts to woo her into bed. The girl would have to take matters into her own hands. Actually, it thrilled him a bit to think about a girl taking his virginity against his will.
But that was all beside the point. He had to get down to business if he wanted food for next week. Resigning himself, he started jerking himself off while flipping through the pages of women dressed like school girls.
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Sometimes he thought about his potential child when he couldn't sleep at night. A few days after he had donated his sperm for the first time, he went back to the clinic to withdraw the sample. It wasn't until after the deed was done that he realized how much he wanted to be involved in his child's life. He could not in good conscience contribute to making a human being without ensuring that his child got all the love and care that she deserved. However, a woman had already received in-vitro fertilization using his sperm. The procedure did not usually work on the first try, but there was no way for him to know whether he had fathered a child or not.
Because of confidentiality issues, he couldn't find out the woman's name. Now twenty years on, he still could not forget about that day.
He had the inkling that if a child of his had been conceived, it would have been female. He fantasized about a little girl dressed in cute skirts that he would spoil rotten. Then once she became a teenager, he would have to jealously fend off any unworthy suitorsโwhich was all of them. Eventually, she would grow up, spread her wings, and become independent. She would no longer need him for anything, and it saddened him that he might have missed such glorious years in her life.
While he frequently thought about his potential child, he could not wallow and obsess about it. He had immediately withdrawn from the donor program even though it meant that he would be short on cash. He bordered on starvation until he landed an internship at Actiontec, a computer software company, as a programmer. Not only was it a paycheck, but this was exactly the kind of career he was looking for. Since he was going to school full-time during the day, he had to spend nights at work.
He stuck with the company after graduation and quickly progressed to senior programmer. It was rewarding and paid well, but it often meant that he would stay at work long past quitting time to make a patch for a bug or two.
With such devotion to work, he soon found himself scared of women. His twenties had flown by without even going on dates more than a handful of times. As the years passed, it became increasingly absurd that he was still a virgin, but that was precisely what was preventing him from taking the plunge. He could imagine how women would ridicule him if they ever found out. By the time he was in his thirties, he had become very close friends with his right hand and saw no reason to venture into the unknown.
Now forty years old, he decided to adjust his work-life balance. He took a consulting role at the company so he would no longer be bogged down by the actual coding. The part-time position still paid enough to support his low-key lifestyle, allowing him to spend afternoons at the local coffee shop just observing people. It was a fun hobby, especially after the new semester started and the town was once again undulated with young pretty girls.
In particular, there was a cute brunette that came in every day at 3 o'clock. While waiting for her order, she would stare out the cafรฉ window at people walking by on the street. Of course, this was the table that he always hoarded since it had the best views of the indoors and the outdoors.
Sometimes she stayed for a little while to work on her computer. She was very intense when she worked, and he didn't think she would notice his attention. Those were the best times to not only admire her body but also look at how cute she was with her brows furrowed in concentration.
He thought he had caught her staring at him once or twice, but she might have been looking at something that was behind him. He tried discreetly sneaking peeks of the girl's ass over the rim of the coffee cup while taking sips. She was rather beautiful in a girl-next-door manner with brunette hair and a sweet smile. Maybe that was why she seemed familiar to him.
However, she was not wearing her typical T-shirt and blue jeans combo today. She was in more formal business attire, looking far more sexy than cute. Since she could turn around any moment, he restrained himself from examining her too closely while she stood at the counter.
Ducking his head, he returned to typing on his laptop until a freshly steaming cup of coffee was plopped next to his already drained one. He looked up to see the alluring brunette from earlier. She was holding her own cup with her left hand and extending her right hand to him.
"Hello Mr. Whitlock. My name is Ana Murphy. I hope I am not intruding."