Hey, it's romanticredhead here! Okay, so this hasn't really got an erotic overblast... if that's even a word, but you know what I mean. I'm just trying to develop the characters, make it clear the conflicting emotions going on within the chicks mind.
Okay? There ought to be more in the next one, I haven't written it yet! I've written like three or four of these stories in 24 hours... I think it's a record for me... So, yep. Peace out for now!
Yours, as ever,
romanticredhead
A redhead with a passion.
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It was a few days after the shower incident. Josh and I had been deliberately polite to each other, and we were only just beginning to get back to normal, although I caught him looking at me in a way that wasn't quite brotherly affection a few times, and I found myself looking at him in a similar fashion.
I don't really know what I thought could happen, in the few days afterwards I put a lot of thought into the moral implications of incest, and came to the conclusion that... well, I guess I hadn't really come to any real conclusion, my mind was still swimming from walking in on such an intimate moment of his. Every time I looked at him, I was reminded of that, and I couldn't help thinking of his size. In the brief look I got, I was stunned by how large it was, it was bigger than the only boyfriend I'd had, James. I had never actually had sex with James, I wasn't sure how I felt about him, and he seemed happy to wait -- until I walked in on him and Maria, a girl who I'd seen a few times from school. Clearly the hand jobs I was happy to give him weren't enough.
It was all very innocent, but at 19, I was still a virgin, and not particularly concerned about it, but now... I just couldn't stop thinking about Josh in a new light, a way I never would have thought of if I hadn't seen him like that, wondering how it would feel inside me, in the place where only mine and James' fingers had ever been. I found myself unconsciously touching myself when I thought about it several times, only to snatch my fingers away and curse softly as I did so.
I think I was falling in love with him, his little characteristics that made me smile, his shining personality, the fact he was my brother making me want him more, the fact that if we ever became involved it would be incest made me feel aroused, something I never thought would happen, never having consciously harboured a perverted attraction to taboo love.
I can say one thing; this entire situation was almost definitely spiraling out of my control.
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