Two weeks is not a long time. When you are a soldier on leave from a combat situation, it seems to pass at a lightning pace. I decided that I would split my two weeks up so that I could see my parents and siblings but also get a small vacation of my own. I could think of no place else I would rather vacation than in Arizona with my cousin Liz and her family. It had been a long time since I had seen her, and she had always been my favorite cousin. The week with my parents went very well, but I had no idea what was in store for me where I was going...
My trip to Arizona started as I had expected. Liz and her parents picked me up from the airport, and we went out to a nice dinner to catch up. There were a few drinks, a lot of laughs, and just good times to be had all around. Liz and I were thick as thieves the whole visit, posing for goofy pictures together whenever we got the chance, and chatting in giddy whispers whenever her parents were around, which was most of the time.
Liz and I finally got some alone time, so we decided to go visit some of her friends. I seemed to fit in almost immediately. Her friends were slightly off-kilter, which made them my kind of people. I have always found normal to be mundane and downright boring. As we spoke at her friend's house, we began to realize there may be more than a family love between us. I wasn't sure if it was lust, love, or just a loneliness from being away so long, but I knew I wanted to find out.
I was in luck, later that day Liz told me she was house sitting for some friends, and asked me if I would ride along with her. Of course I said yes to this opportunity to be alone with her in a private place. I knew it would be a chance for me to bring up these feelings without being judged on the taboo nature, though there was a huge fear in the pit of my stomach that I would be met with rejection and disgust. As we drove to her friend's empty house, I delicately tiptoed around the subject just to gauge her responses and see if I should go for it or not. Her responses led me in a positive direction and I decided when we arrived I was going for broke.
When we arrived at the house, I simply stood in the living room as she tended to things as a good house sitter would. I was trembling with nervous anticipation, but I knew my time was now or never. She reentered the living room and I told her that I needed to tell her something. She responded with a quizzical look on her face because I must have looked pale as a ghost I was so nervous. I told her that for a long time I have been having feelings for her that a person should not normally have for his cousin. She giggled nervously. I told her that I not only lusted for her, but that I loved her deeply, and wanted to share a special and unique moment of passion with her. She responded with a loving gaze into my eyes, no words.