Chapter 5
There was no sleep for me that night. Between those never-ending thoughts about my new living situation, spurred on by the feeling of my mother's basically naked body pressed into mine and the worry about the seemingly stagnating case against the senator, I just couldn't calm down. And, sadly, in more ways than one. That raging hard-on I unsuccessfully tried to will down throughout the night kept reminding me of how great that blowjob felt that I got in the afternoon.
I just couldn't understand how my plan failed! I was
so
sure that once I pointed out that I was her son, which, in turn, should have made her realize that she was my mother, it would rip her out of this weird state she was in and make her question what she was about to do. As it turned out, though, I was utterly off track on this one. Instead, it seemed like she enjoyed pleasing me sexually even more after I insisted on her calling me 'Son'. It actually sounded like she took delight in saying it out loud every time she addressed me.
Or, maybe, she was just happy that I had accepted her. After all, and according to her own words, serving someone was all she wanted. She had told me so multiple times. My only resolve was to not abuse her like Dick had for so long. Maybe she understood my attempt at making her see reality as some kind of simple condition for allowing her to please me. And I had to admit... my resolve to make her stop wasn't just wavering. It was crumbling, fast.
On the other hand, she was clearly not in a good mental state. If I continued to play into that, it may not constitute abuse like she was used to from Dick... But I sure as hell was taking advantage of her!
Even still, I couldn't get that voice out of my head. That quiet but clearly angry voice that sounded like my sixteen-year-old self, demanding retribution and proclaiming his disbelief over me still caring for the woman after everything she allowed to happen to us.
Just at that moment, I felt Mom's leg push itself up my body until her knee came to a rest on my upper thigh, threatening to travel the remaining few inches needed to start nudging the tent in my boxers. I equally dreaded and anticipated what would happen if she discovered this new opportunity to 'make me happy'.
That pulled me out of my thoughts, and I realized that I was doing it again! Just like the night before, I was lying in bed, with my thoughts circling the issue of how to deal with this whole fucked-up situation, but never reaching a conclusion because, if I managed to be honest with myself... the mental image of me using her body got me harder than I had ever been! And I didn't think it was because of how kinky it was, or how it was every man's dream to have a devoted woman catering to his every need. It was the prospect of payback that was more exciting than anything else.
I needed to get some distance. Clear my head again. Draw my attention away from that soft, warm, and enticing body pressed into me, willing and ready to be grabbed and...
I shook my head and started the process of carefully extracting myself from Mom's hold. I had to get away, and I had to do it quickly! But, if I woke her up, there was no doubt in my mind she would make a fuss over it, and I didn't need another argument with her that would leave me feeling guilty in the morning. So, forcing myself to move as carefully and as slowly as possible, I managed to leave the bedroom and close the door behind me without waking her.
But then I just stood in the living room, unsure what to do next.
I needed a plan. But the longer I thought about it, the more I realized that I had to deal with the allegations the senator brought forth against Mom before I could deal with Mom herself. The way I responded to her offerings... I was so sure I had successfully moved past all the pain from my childhood after I left their house. But now, I realized just how much resentment I still held towards both of them and how hard it was to not take it out on her. Maybe, if I managed to prove Mom's innocence and thereby ruined the senator, I could then approach Mom with much less baggage!
With this new resolve, I pulled out all the documents I got from Breston regarding this case and started making notes of all the things I needed to check up on. Doing this, I could only shake my head when I realized that I had been involved in this case for three full days, but only now started working on it earnestly. That simple fact really drove home how much I had been distracted by everything else going on.
When I was done with my list, I understood that it made no sense to start on it in the middle of the night. There was too much to check that involved business hours and help from other people who were fast asleep at this hour. Also, I could work a lot more efficiently after a few hours of sleep. However, since I was reluctant to go back into the bedroom and lie down next to my undoubtedly still-naked mother, I just turned on the TV and stayed on the couch until my brain finally calmed down. Another few minutes later, my eyes got heavy, and I finally lay on my side to let sleep take over.
I woke up to the sounds of pans and pots being moved in the kitchen, which was accompanied by the smell of coffee. At first, this pissed me off. This was an apartment, not a house. Thanks to the "open kitchen theme" people are raving about for some reason, there wasn't even a door she could have closed to muffle the noise, and I was lying on the couch barely fifteen feet away! I was still dead tired and, after trying to move a little, felt my back protest because that couch was not meant to be slept on.
When I tried to sneak a peek at what was happening in the kitchen, however, what I saw almost made me laugh. Mom was in there, dressed in another set of lingerie while wearing her high heels again, and trying to prepare breakfast while making as little noise as possible by not only moving slowly but also by literally trying to tip-toe in her heels. The sight was comedy gold, and it calmed my anger significantly.
Instead of calling out to her, I decided to first try and sit up. It was then that I noticed the blanket someone had placed over me. That was a curious deviation from the way she had chosen to wake me the day before. And, again, I felt relief and regret in equal parts about that.
As my eyes took in the mess I had made on the coffee table when going through the paperwork, I suddenly heard Mom let out a small shriek before the loud clacking of her heels told me that she was rushing into the room. Before I could even turn my head completely towards her, she was on the ground, kneeling before me in the very same submissive pose she had used the day before, though this time, her head was fully bowed instead of maintaining eye contact with me.
This wasn't an attempt to be alluringly submissive towards me. She was scared after waking me by making noise.
"Please forgive me, Son. I didn't mean to disturb you," she implored me with a frightened voice. It confused me for the tiniest of moments before I, once again, noticed how the lingerie framed her body, and how this pose presented her breasts to me. I felt the strangely growing urge to actually put her over my knee under the pretense of punishment. That only lasted until I, for the millionth time in just three days, contemplated what exactly Dick had done to her to cause such a frightened reaction over something as little as disturbing my sleep. Thankfully, I managed to gather my wits quickly enough and address the problem in what I hoped to be a reassuring tone.