Over the next week, Tina called me several times with questions but had not decided to cruise with me. She was still feeling me out. Her questions were not important, just an excuse to talk and see if I had turned into an ogre. I thought about our encounter at the restaurant often. She liked the ideas of sex in public and being watched. It frightened her and challenged her definition of herself.
I called her about ten a.m., "Tina, you have to give me your answer today. We are running out of time."
"My mind is still swirling. I don't know what to do."
"I hope this does not drive you away, but let me be very specific. You know that I am going to show you off. You will have to masturbate for me and be more sexual than you have ever been. You will have to give and take more oral stimulation than you have in your life. If I find a limit, I will push it, but always for fun and pleasure. If you can let go, I think these will be three good memory filled, wild, eye-opening weeks. If you are too afraid to enjoy the trip, the unknowns and the sex, you should stay home."
"Carl what you did to my body at the restaurant was the wildest thing I have ever experienced."
"Will you answer me truthfully?"
She was very hesitant, "Yes, I think so."
"Did you also enjoy knowing that you were in public and being watched? Did you enjoy walking out, displaying yourself to all the people in the restaurant? Did you like hearing that everyone liked watching you cum?"
"That's one of the problems, I did enjoy that. I get wet just thinking about it."
"Well, come sail away with me and let's shock the world and have a great time. You can say "No" to things along the way."
"Can we have dinner tonight? I'll give you my answer then."
"Be specific, where do you want to have dinner? What do you want to do? We have to be equal adults when we talk."
"Carl, I'm still worried that I will disappoint you and ruin your trip."
"Why don't you come over to my house about seven. I'll cook for us. We can talk and have an intimate evening together. Maybe if we talk some, you will understand that I am already sure that I want to be with you."
"Just fix desert. I don't need to talk. I need you to make love to me."
"I will make love with you."
Tina was prompt and very nervous. "Here pretty one, have a couple of glasses of wine with me. Talk to me; ask me anything; relax with me. Tell me why you are so afraid of me."
After the first glass she started to open up, "You know what you are doing and I don't."
"Not true. Your body excites me. It knows what it likes and what to do, just don't stop it. We will have to learn to please each other. There is no script or right or wrong. We'll just fumble along, enjoying the moments."
"You felt so big when I touched you."
"I'm a little longer and broader than average, but that definitely will not be a problem."
"I'm not sure............"
"Enough of all this doubt. Bring the wine and come with me." She followed me to my bedroom. She was a little shocked by the dΓ©cor, the king size bed with metal posts on the corners and metal bars in the headboard and footboard and the erotic pictures.
"Do the pictures bother you?"
"The bondage ones are scary. Are you into that?"
"I'm into fantasies, ideas and pleasing you. Sometimes things go in unexpected directions, if we let them. I want what you want to give me."
"Do you want me to undress?"
"Do you want to undress?"
"I want to undress you and see your body."
I stepped out of my house slippers, stood before her barefooted and said, "Please, be my guest."
Tina's hands trembled as she pulled my polo shirt over my head. She sized up my chest, my arms, my belly button, neck, shoulders and waist. "That is quite an inspection. Do I meet any of your approvals?"
"Carl your body is much better than I thought ..............." She trailed off. "I didn't mean that to sound...."
"Just tell me what you are thinking. I'm a big boy, I can take it."
"No, I like your hairy chest. I thought your body would look older. Your nipples are standing up."
"They usually do. Touch me if you want. Be a little rough if you want. I will not break."
For several minutes, Tina touched me. Tentatively at first then more aggressively. She rubbed my body, pulled at my chest hair, kissed my arms and neck and then sucked on my nipples. "Lick, twist them a little, bite gently if you want." She liked being given permission and she took full advantage of every license I gave her. When she twisted rather hard I recoiled.