I'm not quite sure what I was even thinking when I crossed the factory floor to see what John was up to. I mean, I knew what he was doing: He was sitting cross-legged on the floor, obviously fixing one of the machines. Maybe I just wanted to talk for a bit. John has always been my confidant, and always hears me out when I have a problem, but that's as far as it ever went since we are both happily married. But sometimes out of the corner of my eye, I catch a glimpse of him staring at me, when he thinks I'm not looking, lost in his own little world. And every morning when we meet, he looks into my eyes for just a moment too long as if he's looking for the answer to a question he dares not ask. Sometimes I think he just likes looking at my eyes, usually outlined with a hint of deep blue eye shadow. But sometimes I sense he's peering deep into my soul. And other times he sees right through me. It's so cute the way he tries so hard to hide his feelings but I've always known that he's had a huge crush on me since the day we met, and that's okay with me. It makes my heart a little lighter if I can make his day a little brighter.
Anyway, I was just glad he was in today; last week I caught my husband chatting with his ex girlfriend on-line and I suppose my heart was feeling a bit heavy. I guess I just needed a friend. So many men in my life have caused me pain and I could not bear one more heartache. That's why I confide in John: He doesn't judge me, doesn't push me, and I know deep down in my heart that he would never do anything to hurt me. Fortunately, we were the only ones in today; the plant was shut down but we both had some work to catch up on. Sometimes it's nice to have a little one-on-one with my friend without all the distractions of work that usually get in our way.