I came home from work and he was sitting on the doorstep.
"Finally," he said and he walked over to me. He hugged me gently and kissed my cheek. "How was work?"
He took my hand and guided me into my house while I told the stories I had gained from another lovely day in retail. I started walking directly to the bedroom but he stopped me, guiding me to the couch in the living room.
"What are we doing?" I asked. It's not like all we ever did was have sex but when he just showed up like that, sex was normally the purpose.
"I just wanted to hang out. Maybe watch a movie," he responded. He turned on the tv and popped Django into the DVD player. When he walked over to me on the couch, he sat on the other end and grabbed my hand. I was feeling very confused by the situation. Normally, movies meant cuddling. And cuddling meant eventual sex. All of the subtle cues of our sexual relationship were present but none of them were being followed through on.
My body was becoming hot just from the normal habits. As Django started he let go of my hand and watched the screen intently. My confusion was getting more intense. I leaned over to him and pressed my face into his lap and felt that he was completely soft. He did not react even slightly to my breath over his lap. I started to move for his jeans and he caught my hand.
"Watch the movie," he said.
I felt rejected and strangely turned on by the situation. I had never been stopped in my life. When I tried again to reach for him, he gave me a stern look and threatened to leave if I could not behave.
We sat silently through the rest of the movie.