Connor and I used to be friends but we're not anymore. In fact, we used to be best friends who did everything together. Well, everything except the stuff friends aren't supposed to do together. We had never had sex or touched in sexual ways. We kept things strictly platonic and that was a comfortable and exciting time in our lives.
We were best friends who did everything together, from hitting the DMV to going to the club on Saturday night. Connor was always there for me. From morning until night, we would text, telling each other every excruciating detail about our lives. When we weren't texting we were together, like we were about to be. I checked my watch. I was waiting for him on the corner we had specified the night before but we'd been texting all morning. I spotted him as he passed the convenience store, raising his hand up to wave at me.
"I had the worst tuna fish sandwich today for lunch," Connor explained as he greeted me with a hug.
"I skipped lunch and ate one of those cardboard tasting protein bars. Please tell me we have time to stop by City Thai so I can grab some lunch!" I begged him.
"You know I can't today. I have that photoshoot."
"Of course. How could I forget? Blair Nelson's fine ass is going to pose for you! My stomach needs a reminder, though. I don't want to go to lunch alone!"
"Come with me to the shoot. I think you'll see why I have a crush on Blair," Connor put his arm around me and we walked like that until we reached the crosswalk. "What do you have going right now?"
"Nothing besides lunch."
"Let's grab something to go and you can come to the shoot with me. I want you to see how I work her." Connor raised his eyebrows up and down and gave an exaggerated evil laugh. "You know you want to!"
"I do want to!" I giggled. "City Thai is on the way, isn't it?"
"No, it's a block south but whatever. If you go to the shoot, then it's worth the extra walking."
"Deal," I agreed.
By the time we reached Connor's studio, I was more interested in my Thai takeout than I was in the interaction between Blair and Connor but as soon as she came out of the dressing room I noticed that there was something about Blair I didn't like. I couldn't put my finger on it but I could sense my hate for her right away.
"Connor!" she threw her arms around him as I took in her features. She was a model and she looked like one, with long, dark hair like my own framing a heart-shaped face. She looked eerily similar to me, except she was the much prettier version. Connor hugged her back and I didn't like how happy he looked as she nuzzled into his neck unprofessionally. He was right. She did seem to have a crush on him and this pissed me off for some reason.
"How are you, Blair? This is my best friend in the world, Josie. She's going to watch your shoot if that's ok. Josie, this is Blair." We reached out to shake hands and I was shocked by how warm and sweet she seemed. Maybe I had misjudged her.
"I brought us something to work with today during the shoot if you dare!" Blair unzipped her expensive brand-name satchel and pulled out a humongous bottle of tequila.
"That would be really unprofessional of me," Connor declined the tequila offer.
"How about you?" Blair turned to me and smiled as she opened the bottle and took a swig. She handed it to me. "Wow, that's some good stuff. This isn't the cheap stuff, y'all! This is seriously the best!"
"Okay, I guess tequila goes with Thai food!" I shrugged and took a huge chug from the bottle.
"Wow, you're a partier, I can tell!" Blair giggled.
"Come on, Connor! One drink won't hurt!" I handed him the bottle and he looked at me sheepishly before drinking a good amount from the large bottle.
Blair was already taking her position on the set, her tiny bikini hugging her thin, model frame in ways bikinis never seemed to do on my body. I wasn't sure what I was feeling about Blair until I saw her look at Connor. She was into him and I could see that the feeling was mutual. I hadn't ever felt jealous this way before and I was shocked to find that there were feelings there for Connor where there once had been only friendship. I was crushing on Connor and I was definitely jealous of Blair.
"I'm ready to shoot when you are," Blair informed him, jutting her hip out and giving him a seductive model pout.
"Let's go then!" Connor got out his camera and began to shoot some face shots. I watched as Blair turned and pushed her butt out toward the camera. Connor gave her some direction while I sat with the bottle and my Thai food trying not to be jealous. I hadn't ever realized how much I wanted to fuck him. The more I ate and drank, the more I realized what I truly wanted. I wanted to fuck my best friend and I wanted this stupid bitch to get the fuck out of my way. I knew Connor wanted her. I could see it in the way he held his camera, the way he focused on her like I wasn't even in the room. She was so perfect and if he could have her then what would he want with me?
"You look fantastic!" he called to Blair. "Stay right there I'm going to get my other camera." He turned to me and grabbed the bottle from my outstretched hand and took a drink. He held it out to Blair but she put her hand up to decline. They went back to their work as the drunkenness settled over me. I felt my body getting heavy and before I knew it I was resting my head on the floor. I fell asleep right there next to my Thai food.
"Josie! Josie, wake up!" I knew it was Connor I just didn't know where we were or what we were doing.
