Admitting My Desires

Thank you for the early comments to my first story - this is a continuation.

Over the years of being married, divorced and having girlfriends I've continued to explore. My Bi-Sexual desires are just too strong. The girlfriend whom fully opened my eyes (and Ashlee's eyes) took a lot of care and concern with showing me the ropes. That's where I first finally felt that I was for sure Bi-Sexual.

Kat continued to see her massage clients. They certainly enjoyed her fringe benefits. She used these opportunities to meet men whom would show interest in Bi play. There were many times that she would have me hide (in the closet - no pun intended) and listen to or sometimes even watch once we adjusted the bedroom layout. During these experiences I never once thought about being that guy. I always desired to be Kat and have these men under my hands, in my mouth and sometimes inside my holes like she did. They were all puddy to her. She molded them and was able to produce intense sessions for them. Many a man came from her hands alone, yet at times she never even touched their cocks and they were erupting for her.

Kat finally got a new massage table. This table was extra large. It was solid for sure. Some men got to move their session over to the bed still but 95% of them started on the table now. That table was well worth the money spent on it. It could take a pounding just like Kat.

The days of Craigslist afforded us the opportunity to place ads in the Casual Encounters section. Mainly she was posting in MW4M but also would look at W4W which presented us with our first and only unicorn. She finally had her first girlfriend, Katherine. it progressed to some fun MFF and FMF fun times. Katherine became our GF.

I truly enjoyed getting the pics and videos while working of Kat and Katherine making out and eating out. Imagine my shock to get a video and see Kat fucking her doggie style aggressively. She told her to - say it, say it - thats when Katherine screamed - Tom fuck me. Oh Tom fuck me hard. Amazing to know they were role playing me fucking Katherine.

Kat started a new routine. She would pick out panties for me while I showered in the mornings if I stayed at her house. She preferred pink. Imagine how hard I'd get in my sissy pink panties while at work.

After a few weeks of this she then instructed me to do something after work. I was told to head to the ABS with the Gloryholes. She wanted pics of the store upon my arrival and pics of the inside of my selected booth.

Once I was in and settled it was time to show her the selected movie. I was instructed to look for CD, Tranny or Gay movies in that order. I would send her a short video of what I chose to watch. As soon as that went through I was to strip down to my panties only.

I was instructed to stand at the GH and show my sissy panties to the men and let them grope me. At this point my instructions were clear. I was to suck a minimum of 3 cocks. If they didn't cum in my mouth they didnt count.

The first time I did this I returned home with 5 loads of yummy cum in my belly. Upon arrival I was sent to the shower and told to be clean and shaved smooth all over. I opened the shower curtain and saw white bridal style lingerie on the counter. There was a note...... Sissy Ashlee tonight you take a big step. Tonight you become the real Gurl you desire and need to be. Get dressed and get that pussy in the bedroom asap.

I put on the thigh highs, crotchless panties, garter and attached the straps. It was topped off with a sissy bridal nightie. I felt like it was my wedding day.

When I opened the door to the bedroom it was beautiful. Candles lit and such a sensual smell from them. Kat appeared from the closet in a sexy long black nightgown. She told me to get on my knees. As she walked over she asked if I was finally ready to be mommy's good GURL. I told her I would do anything mommy told me to.

Mommy instructed me to start at her calves and massage up her legs to her mid thighs. Once I got mid thigh she lifted her nightie all the way up and off. It was then that I saw her COCK. I was mesmerized. She told me to make love with my mouth to her sweet cock. I started by stroking it and then started slowly licking it before finally I was sucking her amazing cock.

She said now its time Ashlee get on the side of the bed with your legs hanging off. i assumed the position and she pulled out two bottles. One was Astroglide which we'd used many yimes before. The second was a small brown bottle that said SUPER RUSH. she asked if I trusted her. I of course said - Mommy I trust you with my life. She told me to get my pussy lubed up for her. When she came back to the bed she had the other bottle and shook it. She sat me up and said time to get you prepped. She held the bottle to my nostril and blocked the other. She told me to take a deep breath for 5 sexonds through my open nostril and hold it for 5 seconds. Once done she the did the same on the other side. I felt light headed and super horny. She pushed me on my back and started to finger my wet pussy. I was hearing myself beg her to finger bang me. Idk what came over me. She pulled out her fingers and lubed her cock up.

It was at this point that she got between my sissy gurlie legs and put her cock on my pussy. I for some reason was ready. I begged her to please fuck my pussy Mommy. She put the tip in and idk why but it didn't hurt at all. Slowly I took her whole cock inside my tight pussy. I tried to touch my cock and she said - Ashlee has a clit not a cock. No touching.

I then sniffed from the bottle again on each side as instructed. Mommy told me I was a good Sissy Faggot now and that Mommy was going to make me cum, but i had to beg for it.

I immediately pleaded with Mommy. Please Mommy make me squirt while you fuck my sissy fuckhole. Turn me into your Faggot. Make me cum please Mommy. She grabbed my clit and rubbed it. She told me cocks get stroked and clits get rubbed. I squirted all over my pretty Bridal Lingerie. It was then that she advised me I'm gonna make a good wife someday.

As we settled down she held me close and said I was a Good Gurl for Mommy. She was going to reward me by both of us sleeping in nighties tonight - and yes Ashlee like when you were younger you can rub your clitty on Mommy and cum like you did then. This time Mommy will let you sleep all night with her.

Before we went to sleep Mommy explained the little Brown Bottle to me. She told me they are called poppers and that they are used widely by Gay Men. They loosen your inhibitions and relax your muscles. I asked if that's why I said and did the things that I did tonight? She said they will augment your desires but what comes out is the truth of who and what you are Ashlee. From this day forward Sissy Ashlee will always be a part of you.

Chapter 3 will feature some fun MM times that came to follow.