I was lying flat on back, too stunned to speak. Too stunned to
think.
I felt fucking alive. Fucking King of the World. There was this... glow. A wonderful, glorious haze. I felt giddy, exhausted, and like... I dunno, euphoric. Like I was connected to everythi--
Wait. Where the Hell was I? The ceiling above me was starting to come into focus. I felt... gooood. Okay... sure, some muscles I didn't even know I had were feeling tight, and others were screaming. But I was....
Jeremy.
Everything came crashing back. Good and bad.
Holy shit. We just... we fucking
did it
, didn't we? Holy shit. I rubbed my hand roughly across my face, and realized my arm was bare. Was I...? I raised my head up slightly. Yep. Naked.
Jesus fucking Christ. It was real.
A primordial panic awoke, in the darkest corner of my mind. Oh God. We really fucking did it. We didn't just jerk off together, or get handsy... we went all the way, didn't we? All the way.
And my body was still trying to figure itself out. Hell, my mind was trying to figure it out.
I mean, we just broke every part of the Guy Code. Hell, to hear my relatives tell it, we probably broke the Seventh Seal holding back the Apocalypse. But more than that,
I
broke the Code. Holy shit. Years of conditioning told me that a guy taking it up the ass was no longer a guy. Weakest of weak. Used. Shit... did I just ruin myself? Did I turn myself into a bitch? Did Jeremy think I was his bitch?
Jeremy. God. My best bud. That experience--not just with a guy, with
him
. Together. That's it... together. We were... it was...
I've never experienced anything like that with a guy. Let's face it, I... never experienced
a guy
before. Not like that. Even though guys were a central part of my life as far back as I could remember. But not like that. It has always been backslaps, bro-hugs, and collisions on the field. Mindless. What Jeremy and I had done... it was... deep. And real. The real... feel... of a guy. The full-blown, no-holds-bared, 100% complete experience of a guy. His touch. His sound. His breath. His scent. Connected.
Jeremy.
Connected to Jeremy.
I realized he was lying next to me on the bed. Dazed as I was, and probably a lot more winded. Yeah, he was panting. His hand was lightly draped over my bicep. Holding me. Unwilling to fully break the connection we shared.
I rolled over and lifted myself to my side. Looking at him. Fucking amazing. Again, I had been around guys my whole life, in various stages of undress. But I had never had this kind of... lazy chance... to really check a guy out. Doing so in the gym was risky in the extreme. But now, I was free to take Jeremy in. Fucking appreciate how incredible he was.
And he was so... completely open. Exposed. Vulnerable. And so fucking masculine. So casually, unselfconsciously masculine. Lying flat on his back, his legs slightly spread. His spent dick still lying thick across his hairy crotch, drooling out one last drop of cum. His other arm was thrown over his head, exposing his hairy pit. Fuck. I think we all have a picture in our minds of what naked men lying around seductively look like, gleaned from movies, or magazines, or the covers of romance novels. Clearly, those images were all made for the female gaze. Not here. There was nothing gauzy, soft-lit about him. Jeremy was just lying there, fucking raw. Fucking primeval. Muscles and sweat and power and... all the potential in the world.
And he was fucking sexual.
Fuck... his chest. I thought of myself as hairy, particularly with all the grief my wife gave me. I had a nice crop of fur between my pecs, with a dusting around my nipples, and a trail that led down to join with my hairy crotch.
But Jeremy? He was fucking hairy. Not like a caveman... more like that Bradely Cooper dude. It was thick around his pecs, with fur all across his abs that became a forest around his crotch. So unlike the male models you see in catalogs and shit... or even in the movies. Raw and untamed. Masculine. Just like he was. And dripping with sexual charisma.
But in admiring him, I realized... holy shit, he had cum splatter everywhere. Jesus. I had fucking showered him when I blew. Seeing it there, slowly oozing through his chest hair, I was a little abashed... and fucking proud of myself, too. Goddamn, I had fucking gone to town.
Almost by instinct, I slid my hands across his chest. Wondering at the gentle friction of his hair under my fingers. His chest rising and falling beneath my fingers. Jeremy let out a sound halfway between a murmur and a light laugh. I could feel... the wet slickness of his sweat, and the thick ooze of my cum. I ran my finger through the thick fluid, and brought it to my face. I could smell it, the strangely chlorinated scent of raw cum. I tasted it. Strange. I'd tasted my cum before--what guy hasn't?--but this was different. There was a vast difference in sharing cum with another guy, a buddy. Something guys don't do.
One of many things guys don't do... that we did.
This was so... intimate. A word I'd never used among guys before. Something so... personal about sharing it. So raw. So... fucking hot.