Jim Carmody was on his way to a slaughter. His own. As he walked down the street to meet his master, he knew what was waiting for him when he entered the house at the end of Merritt Road, and for most people, even imagining what was going to happen would have sent them running in the opposite direction.
Jim Carmody was not most people, and as he made his way up the empty driveway his heart was already beating fast. There was no car in the driveway, because the couple that shared the house with their only son were not home, and they would not return until late that night, or early the next morning. Their son was old enough to take care of himself.
That fact would be proven shortly, and Jimmy Carmody knew that better than anyone. He would be walking back down this same driveway a few hours later, and would be moving with a lot less bounce in his step.
Jimmy's body would be aching from head to toe, bruised and abused in every way after being dominated by a man whose physical attributes made the end result obviously from the start, but both the abused and the abuser would be completely satisfied with the result by evening's end.
Perhaps both Jim Carmody and his friend and wrestling teammate, Kevin Tracey were destined to find each other, and once they realized that, they were using each other at every opportunity, and loving every minute of it.
We can only guess at what Kevin Tracey's innermost feelings were regarding these meetings with Jimmy, although there was little question about how much he enjoyed them, but Jimmy was open about what he got out of it. Here is his story.
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Chapter One: What's wrong with you?
That's the question that many people would ask, if they knew about my real relationship with Kevin Tracey, that is. To the world we seem to be quite normal, or at least as far as high school seniors go in 2010.
We're both 18, high school seniors and teammates on our school's wrestling team. That's what got us together at the beginning, and frankly that's all we have in common, because we're as opposite as two guys can be.
Kevin is handsome, and is one of the most popular guys in our school, having been Student Council President every year we've been at Wells High School, and I suspect that he'll be the King at our Prom in June as well.
Me? I'm more of a nerd. Definitely NOT handsome, and while I'm no longer the 98 pound weakling that got me picked on constantly in my early years, the girls don't line up to bat their eyelashes at me to try and get my attention like they do to Kevin. My somewhat over-sized ears, buck teeth and faint acne scars don't help either.
That's alright with me, though, because while I'll probably end up going to the prom with one of the more desperate females at school, my attendance will only be the result of my Mom's nagging, along with a desire to maintain my cover.
Who would I want to go to the Prom with? That's simple. Kevin. In a perfect world I would be holding his hand and dancing every dance with him, but this world isn't perfect, and something like that just isn't done in this sleepy hamlet nestled in the foothills of the Adirondack Mountains of upstate New York.
Kevin wouldn't do anything like that anyway, or at least that's what he would say. He likes women - loves women - and has the notches on his bedpost to prove it. If he wants a girl, he gets her, and he wants a lot of them, but I know how he is with me. It's our little secret.
So I let Kevin pretend that he's strictly a macho man, and that he only spends time with me out of habit, or when he doesn't have a date. Sometimes he says it's because that he feels sorry for me. It's all part of the game. Seems I must like the emotional abuse too.
How did we happen? I guess it goes way back to junior high, when I happened past the gym after school and saw the guys at wrestling practice. I think I must have just gotten tormented, or beaten up AGAIN by one of the knuckle-draggers at school, and I was trying to figure out a way to avoid spending the rest of my life as a human punching bag.
Long story short - the gym teacher/wrestling coach gets me to try out for the team, and I end up making the squad. That says a lot about the shape of our school team more than my skill level at the time. I think I only made it because I could make the 103 pound weight limit back in eighth grade.
Now a senior, I'm up to 119 pounds but still only around 5'5". My wrestling record isn't spectacular, but I win more than I lose, and getting to wear a jacket with a big W on it does help my self-esteem somewhat, even if my body looks kind of lost in the school jacket, which was the smallest they make.
Kevin's wrestling career is something else. Undefeated in our conference throughout high school, he almost won his 189 pound weight class last year, and after adding even more strength while maintaining his weight, he's going to be almost impossible to beat this year.
His body was what attracted me to Kevin from the start. It certainly wasn't his mind, because while he's not stupid, he isn't the sharpest knife in the drawer. That's probably why I end up helping him with his homework, and have even done it for him on more than one occasion. The gulf in our academic prowess is the exact opposite of our athletic skills.
Even now, having spent all these years in close proximity with him, it takes a lot of willpower to avoid gawking at Kevin when we shower at school. Kevin Tracey has a physique that makes jaws drop, and that's not just me either. I enjoy watching guys from other schools who haven't seen him in person when we're in the locker room at tournaments.
Oh sure, they've seen his picture in the paper and in some magazines, but seeing this man in person is a whole different ballgame, either when you're looking across the mat at him or seeing him in the shower.
Kevin's just shy of 190 pounds, and there's not an inch of fat on his six foot frame, which looks like the inspiration for some of those Greek statues I've seen. His shoulders are wide, his arms and legs are massive and has a 19" neck. As for the other parts?
I still remember like it was yesterday, that first time I saw Kevin nude. I was filled with all of the insecurities many that guys my age have, and seeing Kevin standing under the spray of the shower that day did absolutely nothing to put those fears to rest.