Completely naked, hands behind my head. Facing the wall and looking down to the ground. My feet far apart and my knees slightly bent forward. My abs tight and my back straight up. An impossible position. The man behind me told me that this was submission position one. That I will learn more positions soon, which I must assume and keep direct on his command. In the current my ass is fully open and exposed. My dick is hanging free like fruit on a tree. The foreskin pulled backward so the shining glans of my cockhead is fully visible. Ready to be plucked.
From behind he puts two fingers deep in my mouth and his other hand start to squeezes hard in my nipple. Pain like a firelighter is lit under a piercing flow true my brain. Combined with the cramp in the muscles of my calves due to the impossible posture it make me want to scream and move my body. I need to reposition my legs, relief the pain and prevent myself from falling. I want it to stop now.
"Stand still, keep quiet." Says the man while his feet kick the inside of my ankles to spread my legs even more. And a third finger enters my mouth.
I fully understand that I should be as quite as possible. We are standing in a toilet box in the Hilton Hotel in Amsterdam. The door is locked, but on the other side I hear men entering the bathroom. Some talking other alone and silent. Most of them hit direct for the urinals on the wall next to my current prison. Strong hard waterflows of horny golden shower hits the wall, pattering close to us. Then they wash their hands, dry them with the noise of the lawnmower on the wall dryer and disappear. Silence in the room till the next visitor arrives. Only the continuous soft music and the breath of the man behind me. Being discovered in this position, by hotel personal or even worse police officers, would be a disaster. I suffer in silence, control myself to accept it.
I stand even more still as before, although he squeezes now both my nipples, hard. As if they are just citrons and he wants all the juice out of it. It really hurts. But this has been my dream for some time, being dominated. Not thinking, just do what another wants you to do, please to please on demand. As a toy, an object to be used or even better as nothing. Waste.
As a young man of twenty-four years, well build, trained with a nice cock I had a good life. A good job. Sex was never a problem. Their where enough nice young bottom boys around me for pleasure. And sometimes a nice juicy pussy of a girl. I played around, not really interested in relations, and loved live. Still exploring myself and sometimes bored after a fuck. I wanted more, explore my boundaries. I found a kinky gay dating site, and created a profile of a boy ready to become submissive. Unexperienced but willing to learn. A lot of man replied, leather, one-night stands, bare, FF, BDSM and all other dominant tops, mainly older man. Most wanted just short sex driven one-night stands. I tried a few but it was disappointing. They wanted to fuck but where not interested to make me their toy. It was not enough, I got even more bored in this world,
I lost interest until one Japanese man seemed to understand my need. He did not tell me what he wanted to do but asked what my fantasies where. And even better he asked why I want to become a submissive tool. It was never about sex, what he would do with me, how he would use me. No, it was about my feelings and his desire to own a toyboy for monthly sessions. After two months of mail contact, he responded that I most likely was good material to become his tool. But he needed to check my desires with an interview in a public location. I agreed.