As I walked through the woods with my best friend Jason and his father, I tried to count how many times we had walked this same route to the same spot at Long Lake. It had to be close to a couple of dozen times, having gone at least a couple times a year since I was 9, and that's been ten years.
One of these times would eventually be the last, because we were starting to go our separate ways, Jason and I. It was more of a natural thing, with Jason now starting his second year in college out in Colorado, that we were not quite as close. He had a new life of sorts out there most of the year, while I had stayed local in choosing college, mostly because of costs.
So I tried to treat each trip like it was the last, savoring every moment in the company of what seemed to be like my second family. Oh, I had a Mom at home, so it wasn't like I was an orphan, but my father had taken off long ago - just went out for a drive and never came back, like that Springsteen song went.
Jason was lucky. His father always came back, and although I always told Jason how lucky he was to have a father, I don't know whether he believed it or not. Perhaps he will one day when he's gone, but I hope that day never comes because I'll probably miss Will Simpson as much as Jason would, maybe more.
I've never been much for praying, but when I did back in my younger days I often wished that somehow I would get adopted my the Simpson family so that Jason's Dad would be mine too. I love the man, and as I've grown older that love has changed, evolving from a sort of hero worship to what it is now.
Will Simpson - Mr. Simpson to me then and now and probably forever - is talking with us as we walk down the trail, pointing out different varieties of tress and noting how a couple had fallen since our last visit. I'm nodding and paying attention, but more to Mr. Simpson than the foliage.
There was a time when he was twice my size, and while he still towers over us kids the differences aren't that great any more. At about 6'4" and around 200 pounds, Mr. Simpson has a few inches and a few pounds on me, and even thought he's about 50 he's still in great shape and still is athletic as ever.
Mr. Simpson looks stern and imposing - resembling Iron Man in a way with his bald head and muscular physique, but he's a teddy bear inside. Jason doesn't think so and claims he can be a hard-ass on occasion, but that's all right. He's a Dad and sometimes they have to remind you of what his and your responsibilities are. I guess that's the way it goes, but obviously I don't know for sure.
I'm just glad Mr. Simpson lets me hang around with them so much, especially on these little fishing trips. Jason doesn't seem to mind either, so it works out great for me. I don't even care that much about fishing. It's their company I enjoy most, especially Mr. Simpson.
As we fished, I wondered what Mr. Simpson would say if he could read my mind. Would he recoil at the things that go through my mind when I look at him? Does he know that, while maybe I'm not homosexual, I sure as hell am bisexual? If he did suspect that, would he expecting that his son was not the object of my desires?
Jason's not, although he's a lot like his father, a Will Simpson in miniature. I'm never felt anything toward Jason that's remotely sexual. Not like his Dad, and although I don't know when I started feeling this way, I do know that the feeling only gets stronger as time passes.
One thing I knew for sure, as I watched Mr. Simpson reel in another fish while we laughed and cracked open the celebratory beers he allowed us to have on these trips despite being a year or so shy of legal in that regard, was that I knew Will Simpson sure didn't have those feelings toward me. He was 100% straight.
"Gotta go," Mr. Simpson announced later in the day, and when he asked whether we wanted to join him only one of us did, and that of course was me.
It was a ritual of sorts, and back in the day it was all three of us whizzing away after making our way a good distance down and away from the water, but Jason had stopped joining us. I guess he felt weird taking a leak with his Dad but I sure didn't.
As we unzipped and let loose, I tried to make my staring not look as obvious as I feared it was, and could hope that it worked. There he was, Will Simpson, after giving his cock a couple of tugs, standing there with his hands on his hips waiting for the flow to start.
It was a thing of beauty, that much was for sure. I used to be terrified when I would glance over and see that enormous hose hanging out there. Medium brown and scary looking, and recalled thinking in my youthful ignorance that there was something wrong with it, because it didn't have a head on it like Jason and my dick had.
It doesn't scare me any more though. Like with our heights and weights, I've caught up somewhat with Mr. Simpson, and while I'm still not close to him size-wise I no longer hide myself when we go side by side.
I still lose in our contests, because he can whizz halfway across the forest with that weapon, but I came pretty close to beating him this time. I hoped he didn't notice that the reason was that I was beginning to get a hard-on while I went.
"Who won?" Jason asked when we got back.
"Guess," I muttered in fake disgust, although his father claimed that I almost dethroned him this time.
"Everything is falling apart on me," Mr. Simpson joked. "Comes with getting old."
We all chuckled, but while I want to tell him that he's not getting older, he's getting better, I don't. I also don't tell him that when I get home and am under the covers, I won't be thinking about the ones that got away while fishing, but about seeing that beautiful hunk of manhood once again and fantasizing about it doing other things besides peeing.
***
Months later...
The phone call came early in September, and when I heard the voice on the other end I feared the worst. It was Jason's Dad, and the only reason I could imagine him calling was that something had happened to Jason. To my surprise and delight, it had nothing to do with Jason.
"I'd love to!" I said when Mr. Simpson asked me if I felt like going fishing with him the next day.
"With Jason out west and all it's kind of lonely around here," he explained.
There was a Mrs. Simpson, but judging from what I witnessed and from comments Jason made in the past, they really didn't have much of a marriage any longer. Without Jason there, I suspect that hanging around the house wasn't all that much fun.
This was going to be strange, being alone with Jason's father, but I was looking forward to not having to share him with my friend, as selfish as it sounded. Because I was so fired up, I got a lousy night's sleep, but was raring to go the next morning when Mr. Simpson came to pick me up in his Range Rover.
From the second I hopped in the front seat I sensed something was different. Mr. Simpson seemed nervous, and while he was very friendly his manner seemed forced, as if he had something on his mind besides fishing.