Laying there in bed the next morning, I could still feel my ass wrapped around Alex's cock. I groaned. Wishing his cock had really been in there instead of the remnants from a dream. As the feeling of his cum leaking out of my ass waned, I started to wake up. Rolling out of bed, naked, I made my way to the shower. I had cleaned myself up last night after reaming my ass with the biggest dildo I had, after Meeting Alex at the bar, but my crotch was coated in my own cum and my ass was sticky. I was already starting to forget the dream but I must've leaked precum the whole time. Letting the shower warm up, I saw Alex's card. A reminder that I was still supposed to meet him, at his office, in a couple days. Stepping into the shower and letting the water run over me, I started to wonder what his proposal could possibly be. Why wouldn't he just want me to service him last night? Why did I need to go to his office, if it was about sex? Was this some kind of trick?
Then I remembered how thick his cock was, hanging heavy between his legs. The smell of his leather. The smell of his cigar. The drop of precum hanging from the tip. My balls tightened and my cock twitched. My ass felt even more empty. I imagined sucking the tip of his mushroom head, tasting that drop. Running my tongue around the ridge. Slowly letting it deeper into my mouth, feeling him get harder. I was leaning against the tile of the shower now, letting the water run down my back and and over my ass. The water finding its way across my empty hole. Pushing my ass out, my cheeks naturally spreading to let the water tickle that hungry unused hole. I was holding my cock and balls, moving my hips and squeezing my kegels unconsciously. His cock pushing against the back of my mouth, stretching the opening of my throat. His cock hard as a rock, pushing past my gag reflex. Holding me there with his big hands. Letting my tight throat relax and milk his cock. My balls getting tighter, my ass getting hungrier. I started leaking precum, mixing with the hot water from the shower. Moaning; and then I came. Thick rope of cum. Just from thinking about sucking his cock. I collapsed against the tiled wall, barely holding myself up.
Shaking myself back to reality, I finally washed up and got out of the shower. Last night at the bar I had been about 30 seconds from getting on my knees and sucking that big cock in front of the whole bar but he had stopped me.
"No, I'm not going to let you suck my cock." he had said. Which threw me off, especially with my social anxiety. I am terrible with small talk in the best of situations and being there at the bar, wearing leather and my cock locked up in a chastity cage for all the world to see, wanting to find some cock had made it all but impossible. When I was younger, I didn't care too much about chitchat with the guys I met online. At least in person, back then it was easier to actually chat with people in chatrooms with them immediately wanting your cam open or immediately wanting to hookup. I would get to know them at least a little and then in person it was all speed ahead but very little socializing. I never really had a "buddy." Sure there were a couple guys I serviced more than once but since I'm bi and heteroromantic so I was more interested in dating and getting to know women.
There had been one guy, around my age, that I actually enjoyed talking to and hanging out with after the sex but he seemed to be interested in more than just sex and I simply could not reciprocate. He ended up finding that with another guy. I still couldn't reciprocate those kinds of feelings but as I had gotten older I felt like I had shortchanged myself by not being more open to at least actually being friends with any of my male partners. Now what I really wanted was a safe friend, where I could be as slutty as I wanted for him and still hang out whether we had sex or not. I had had plenty of female "friends with benefits" but never a guy. Which is why I had found myself at a bar looking for cock last night.