Trevor and I had been together for two years before I finally managed to end it. He hadn't been a terrible person or anything, just... a bit boring, honestly. He never quite managed to get his life together after university, always finding some excuse to keep working shit jobs that he hated instead of trying for something bigger.
So it's not like I had any delusions about him being the great love of my life, or anything, but it still sucked to go through the break-up and realize that after two years of work at the relationship, I was back where I started - single. It was depressing, and I decided to cope by spending more time with friends, especially the friends I had that Trevor didn't like.
One such friend was Peter.
Admittedly, Peter wasn't the best guy. He was a notorious horn dog, always talking about his latest conquests and getting a bit handsy after a drink or two. But he could also be hilarious and, frankly, sometimes I found his stories kinda hot. He was always hunting after some new twink, and he seemed to love a challenge. But Trevor found the stories "distasteful" - he literally said that once, "distasteful" - and would get really possessive when Peter would put his arm around my shoulders or playfully give my ass a quick pat, so we lost touch a bit. It was too bad, because Peter and I had always gotten along well, and used to get together regularly to play video games, but Trevor threw a fit about it once and I kind of let Peter and I drift apart.
So when Peter reached out to me after the break-up went public, I was more than happy to invite him over for drinks and some gaming. I was worried at first that it would be awkward - here was a guy who I'd basically ditched because my ex didn't like him, and probably knew it - but Peter was great about it. He showed up to the apartment with a couple bottles of wine, and as soon as he saw me he set the bottles down and pulled me into a huge hug.
"Little dude!" he said, literally lifting me into the air, just like he used to.
I rolled my eyes. I never cared for people pointing out how short I was - I barely broke 5'6" - but Peter seemed fascinated with it. "Oh god, I have immediate regrets about inviting you back into my life," I teased.
Peter laughed and set me down, but didn't quite let me out of his hug yet. I'd forgotten how big of a guy he was - not fat, and he wasn't crazy muscular, but he was just big and fairly athletic. It was nice having his arms wrapped around me; I'd been missing physical affection since I'd become single again.
Anyways, after that, we slipped easily back into our old flow; drinking a bit too fast, playing games, and catching up a bit.
"Man, I'm so excited for you," Peter said at some point. "After all that time with dumbass, you've gotta be raring to go for a good slutty phase."
I laughed. "I don't know if a slutty phase is really my style."
Peter gave me a roguish wink. "It should be, you'd have guys lining up for a chance at that ass of yours."
I rolled my eyes. That was just the kind of thing Peter would say so casually that would piss Trevor off so bad. Peter was all talk though, as far as I was concerned, so I usually let it go. That being said, it had been a while since anyone had been checking out my ass, and I felt myself blushing a bit too.
"In fact, I'd bet you've already had a few good fucks since you kicked Trev to the curb."
Trevor had also hated the whole "Trev" thing, so I took some malicious pleasure from that. "Nah," I said, "No such luck. Honestly, I don't even know how to meet guys anymore." I'd met Trevor at our town's old gay bar, which had closed down since. "The online thing never got along well with my anxiety, and it's not like I'm working at homo central."
"Oh, man, no, you've gotta start getting out there." There was a lull as we refocused on kicking each others' asses in the game, before an idea struck Peter. "I know! You should come to my gym. It's super cruisy, you could totally get some nice cock in you."
"Peter!" I was slightly scandalized, though I could feel myself blushing a bit harder. I did have a bit of a fantasy about getting checked out and fucking in a locker room. I mean, who didn't have leftover fantasy wank bank material from the high school locker room after gym class? But I'd never told Peter that, so I played it close to the chest. "I'm not going to hook up with some random at the gym. Besides, I have a nice workout routine at home. And what am I going to do, parade around in the locker room in a jockstrap until some guy bends me over and fucks my brains out?"
Too specific? Probably too specific. Thankfully Peter didn't seem to notice my overly-detailed hypothetical. "That would get the job done. Wait, is that why you work out at home instead of hitting the gym? Too shy to go around naked?"
"Yep," I said quickly. It was partly true, I was pretty shy about being naked in a place like that. I just left out the bit where I'd probably start to enjoy it too much. Damn fantasies.
"Oh, well that's an easy enough problem to fix. We should hang out naked."
I laughed at him, though it had planted the idea in my brain of being naked with Peter in the locker room... I'd seen Peter in skimpy briefs once at Pride, because of course he's That Guy at Pride, and frankly I wouldn't mind seeing more. He had a great athletic build and a bulge that I sincerely hoped wasn't stuffed.
Wait, I suddenly realized, am I fantasizing about Peter? Maybe Trevor was right to worry...
Out loud, I said, "I am not just getting naked with you. Weirdo."
"But how are you going to get over your Never-Nudeness except by exposure?" For a second I thought the double entendre was accidental, but he added a wink a second later that made my pulse flutter a little.
Damn, where was all this coming from? The answer was pretty close at hand, though; one and a half years of boring sex plus half a year of jerking off in the shower plus four weeks of being single. With the extra variable of two bottles of wine split between Peter and I that night, with the third waiting in the fridge.
"I am not a Never-Nude. And I'm not one of your sluts, either," I added, maybe a bit meaner than I intended.
Peter didn't seem to mind, he was grinning. "Then what's the harm? I mean, isn't this one of the best parts about being gay? Being open about sexuality with your friends? Besides, how are you gonna have a slutty phase if you can't get naked with a guy?"
I snorted. I had distinctly not agreed to this whole slutty phase concept, though the wine was starting to give the idea a certain sheen, and I definitely wasn't going to strip down with an old friend.
Peter started to stand up, and I quickly said, "Do not take off your pants."
He laughed at my near-panic. "Relax, I'm just getting more wine." Peter grabbed his glass and mine, without asking (presumptuous fucker). He had been sitting on the side of the couch that was pressed up against the wall, and had to cross in front of me to get to the kitchen. What he didn't have to do, but did, was sidle between me and the coffee table, putting his crotch right in my face. It wasn't his most subtle of moves - and honestly, this wasn't the first time he'd made sure to put his bulge at my eye level over the course of our friendship, or even the first time that night - but it was the first time I found myself really looking at it. He wore loose shorts that made it easy to notice a sizeable lump. I couldn't tell if he was aroused at all, but it was at least as big as I remembered it from his Pride outfit, and I strongly suspected he'd end up being a fair bit bigger than Trevor was...
I tried to look away quickly, though I'm sure Peter caught me checking him out anyways. Dammit. I really had just intended to reconnect and have another gay friend, and here I was checking him out and casually chatting about getting naked with each other? It was hard to tell how seriously Peter was taking it, mostly because he'd always been outrageous and sexual. Maybe he was just joking around, or maybe he legitimately thought he should help me get more comfortable getting naked (and getting laid). Or maybe Trevor was right, and Peter's top priority had always been getting me on my back.
"I'm serious," Trevor said from the kitchen, punctuated by the sound of a cork popping.
Woah. Freaky mind-reading moment.
"Serious about us getting naked?" I tried to make it sound derisive, but I had the bad feeling that my voice was wavering.
"Obvi," he said casually from the other room,
"How are you going to be a good little slut if you can't even drop trou with a friend?"
My breath hitched. Something about the phrasing sent a literal shiver down my spine. 'Good little slut'. It was so fucking cheesy, something someone would say in a bad porno (which, honestly, could be said of most things that came out of Peter's mouth), but I was suddenly very glad that Peter was in the other room and couldn't see how hard I was blushing.