Seeking Satisfaction
"Come inside. For you, no cover fee." The muscular man reached out and gripped the belt of Derek Jungman's shorts and pulled him toward the stairs that led down into the half basement under the sign and poster advertising the bar below. "You will have experiences such as you've never had before. I can tell you are interested. You are just what they'll love down there. They will show you a real good time."
Derek nudged forward toward the man. He was tempted. It had been too long. The big bruiser doorman at Leathermen's, a gay men's BDSM club on a narrow side street off the Via Giacomo Baranello near the Genoa, Italy, docks, spoke to the young German in coaxing tones. There was no question that the handsome, perfectly formed, young blond man, with the inviting pale blue eyes and shy smile, was intrigued. There also was no question that he'd be welcomed with open arms in the club. There was little question what would happen to him if he went down into the club either.
"There you are, Derek. I turned at the tailor shop and you were gone."
The man approaching where Derek and the doorman were conversing in low tones, Marcelo Mancini, was tall, trim, expensively dressed, and maybe in his forties. He'd already started to go gray, but his hair was groomed--everything about him was groomed--and on him the gray sideburns were distinguishing. He looked every inch the popular city TV anchorman that he was. He also was Derek's man--the man who worked hard to keep Derek out of the clutches of other men.
He had every intention of continuing to be the man who covered and took care of the twenty-two-year-old German who had come to Genoa as a tourist and had fallen under Marcelo's sway on a beach south of Genoa one afternoon. Later that night, Marcelo had taken care of Derek on the bed in his flat, with Marcelo lying between the then-twenty-year-old's thighs, choking the youth, Derek's wrists bound together by a silken scarf, and controlling him in breath play, while he pumped him full of cum. What had intrigued Derek was how civilized and refined Marcelo could be in public and how demanding and dirty he could be in private. The rough sex had cooled over the subsequent two years, but Derek had remained in Marcelo's bed, being fucked almost nightly.
What Derek was being tempted with outside the leathermen's bar was just what had kept him with Marcelo--hoping that his relationship with Marcelo would return to the form it had started in.
"I was bored," Derek said, as he allowed Marcelo to take his arm and lead him back to the Via Giacomo Baranello. "You have so many suits. I don't know why you are having another one made, or why I need to be there--why I always need to be there."
"You know I value your judgment in clothing taste," Marcelo said, stopping and drawing Derek toward the wall of a bank at the head of the narrow street they had just been in, where both the tailor shop and the Leathermen's club were located. "And you know that we're going up to Bellagio on Lake Como for me to narrate that special show on the celebrities who own places on the lake." What he didn't acknowledge was that, indeed, he kept the young German as close to him as possible from fear he'd lose him. Marcelo had just turned forty. He was afraid of the aging process--not just in his work, where on-camera appearance was oh so important, but also with his possession of this much younger, supremely sexy young man.
"That club back there. Your birthday is coming up and I've been trying to find something special to give you--and sorry that I'll be working in Bellagio on the day, but you'll be there too. I'll rent someplace nice on the lake and we'll celebrate your birthday there. But, as for a gift, I saw that the thug at the door to that club back there had you in deep conversation. Is that what you would like for your birthday? Would you like to go to a club like that some night? I know we were doing it pretty rough at the beginning, and I've always wondered--"
"No, of course not. I was just teasing with that man. Just being with you, for any time you can break away from your work at Lake Como: That would be a wonderful birthday present. Since we're down near the water now, though, do you think we could go to the seafood restaurant, Luigi's, in the harbor, for lunch?"
"Of course, certainly," Marcelo said, taking the young man's arm again. Holding him like he was afraid the gorgeous German youth would escape him or be snatched from him by younger, more muscular men, like that doorman back there, and guided him south on the Via Giacomo Baranello toward the inner harbor of Genoa. As they walked, people passing them gave Marcelo looks of recognition and then speculative looks at Derek, as if seeing the two together gave them a revelation of something they'd suspected as they watched Marcelo on TV. But Marcelo didn't give a shit about that. Let them speculate--let them know. As long as he could keep Derek with him, that was all that mattered.
On Derek's part, as they walked, he was thinking of the issue he had barely avoided coming to the front. Yes, Marcelo had been rough with him at the first, but what Marcelo didn't know was that the cooling down of their sex--the sex becoming more conventional even while it continued to be frequent--had been rough on Derek. He didn't think that Marcelo had any idea what Derek had come from in sexual experience--what he'd become used to and what got his motor going. The money that had paid for his Italian vacation two years earlier had come from a Berlin BDSM club, where Derek had danced the pole at nineteen and let men--not just let them, but reveled in them doing so--beat, whip, bind, fist, and whatever else they had wanted to do with him--in public, on the stage.
Derek's arousal spiraled up into the heavens from being manhandled and mistreated in sex--fully used. The voyeur aspect of it--having men watch him being taken hard--was more than half of the arousal value for Derek. Although his coupling with Marcelo in the beginning had been in the lower reaches of this realm, Derek had thought that it was just a prelude into Marcelo being more comfortable with taking Derek more fully and cruelly. But, alas, it hadn't. By the time Derek realized that their relationship wasn't going there, he had fallen in love with Marcelo. He had also fallen in love with what Marcelo could give him in terms of lifestyle. He was working on accepting what Marcelo could and would give as being enough for him.
He had almost blown it back there at Leathermen's. He had been so tempted to go inside, to get naked, to open himself to the men inside, and to let them use him and abuse him--and stand around, dicks in hand, watching it all happen. He had gone too long without being totally used and taken to heaven. He'd think of coming back sometime when he wasn't with Marcelo. But he always was with Marcelo. Marcelo even insisted that Derek come to the studio, acting as his valet, for broadcasts. Derek was always under Marcelo's control. But, then, being under a man's control to that extent was part of what Derek found arousing. He was in that zone of getting enough to stay with Marcelo but not enough to be fully content with Marcelo.
Such a dilemma.
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