I made dinner while Ryan set the table, we would have a sit down dinner for a change, he even put out candles, wine glasses, the whole nine yards to bad we were only having burgers, I decided to make a salad to go with the burgers, Ryan helped me chop up veggies to put in the salad, I put on shorts to go cook the burgers, Ryan gave me a funny look.
"Ryan I am sure the neighbours would not like me barbecuing in the nude." I said to him laughing.
"Oh yes I forgot Tom your barbecue is on the front step." Ryan said to me.
I quickly got the burgers cooked, Ryan seemed to disappear, when I came in the house he was no where to be seen. I checked the pool, not there, he was in the bathroom trying the toys, wanting to loosen up for later.
Ryan came out the way he walked I could tell he had the plug in, it made him step differently. We took our seats Ryan lit the candles, we fixed our burgers, and I poured us some wine. We toasted to new beginnings. I looked at him I was so into him now, I was sure it showed when I looked at him, I could no longer hide my feelings for him. But being realistic the age gap between us was way to much, all I knew was I was in love with him.
After dinner we sat played cards, then a dip in the pool, Ryan wrapped himself around me as we exited the pool.
"Let's go to bed Tom, I am ready for you now."Ryan said to me kissing me.
I laid him on the bed, he laid there I took in all of his beauty, the long blonde curly hair, the smooth face, the long sensuous neck, the smooth chest, the nipples so perky and pointy, his abs pronounced like a washboard, the trail from his navel to his trimmed down pubes, trimmed so perfectly golden brown, his cock rock hard seven inches of uncut perfection, his balls a tinge of pink and brown, his legs dusted with hair so fine it tickled my lips when I licked them.
His ass a perfect bubble that begged to be touched, to be licked and rimmed, even his feet were so perfect. His toes all straight, his shoulders well built and muscular his pecs perfection, the forearms dusted with more of his golden hair, his hands his fingers long, his nails perfectly manicured, his palms soft yet callused.
"Tom what is it? Are you okay? Am I okay? Can we do this?" Ryan asked me.
I did not reply I laid on top of him his arms wrapped around my neck his legs around my waist, I laid us down in the middle of the bed.
"Are you sure you want to do this Ryan? You don't have too, I am not pressuring you to do this please." I asked him.
"Yes Tom of course, I want you to make love to me, I need to know how it feels to have part of you inside me Tom you have to do this for me Please Tom Please." Ryan begged me.
I looked him in the eyes, I gently kissed him, I held the kiss, then pulled my head back.
"I Love You Ryan." I said tearing up.
"I Love You too Tom, don't cry please don't cry Tom, you will make me cry if you do." Ryan said choking up.
I hid my face in his neck, I was choked up the tears were flowing, I was in love with this young lad now what? Ryan held me tight as I cried it out, he rolled us over, keeping my face in his neck.
"It's okay Tom, everything will be okay." Ryan told me.
I pulled myself together I was after all the older adult here, I lifted my head my eyes red tears dripping from my cheeks.
"What is it Tom? What's wrong?" Ryan asked me.
"Let's talk about it later please." I asked him.
