That evening I could not concentrate on homework. I kept turning my head and glancing out the window, hoping to catch a glimpse of the new neighbor in the room across from mine. I noticed that while I was at school, a desk had been moved into the once deserted room. The desk was actually a drafting table that tilted up and was open underneath. Overhead lights on angled arms were clamped to each side of the large table. The room was dark except for a small lit lamp sitting on a bookcase against the back wall of the room.
Annoyed at myself for being so distracted by the new neighbor, a stranger, I slid out of my desk chair and hit the floor trying to do as many pushups as I could crank out. After exhausting my arms and chest with forty three pushups, I rolled over and did sit-ups until my abs pinched with exhaustion. I layed on the hardwood of my bedroom, breathing hard and sweating. Only when I got up did I realize the lights on the drafting table had been turned on.
He was leaning over the drafting table looking at something, a drawing or maybe a map I guessed. I instantly saw how hairy his lower arms were. Why hadn't I noticed the hair on his arms that morning? My own arms were beginning to be lightly dusted with blonde, fine hairs.
The neighbor walked around to the side of the desk. He was wearing short green running shorts that showed off his well defined legs, covered in dark brown hair. My mouth felt dry and I rubbed my penis through the pair of shorts that had long ago lost the elasticity of the waist and hung loosely under my hips. It was only then that I realized I was standing in the middle of my room, staring at an adult man, rubbing my hardening cock in full view through my window. Any second, he could have turned and seen me staring at him while molesting myself.
I turned and slid into my desk chair, staring at the homework on my desk, trying to act like I had been studying the whole time. The homework on my desk was just swirls of pencil on a white sheet. My mind was circling in panic, guilt, and arousal. I felt shame for openly staring at the new neighbor. What if he had seen me? Surely he would march down the steps of his house, across the alleyway to my front door, and bang loudly on it until someone in my family answered to the anger waiting on the other side. How dare they let their faggot perverted son stare at him through the window of his own home! What if he threatened to call the police or my school?
Had I been caught? The banging on the front door that would mark the ruin of my life never came. I had to look over, through the windows. Why were the windows facing each other anyway? Was this God's way of tempting me?. I pretended to drop a pencil over the side of my desk facing my window and his. I should be stronger. While my pencil dropped through the air, bouncing on the wood floor of my bedroom, I quickly promised myself and God that I would be a better boy, a better man.