Sorry guys for taking so much time off. I thought more of you would love Chapter 5 and Tan's perspective. I'm not sure what was lacking or why I got so few votes...hmmm...but at least I reached a 4.50. Regardless, thanks for the encouragement some of you have directed my way! Aren't there any strong Asian guys out there who appreciate my story??? Should I continue?
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Have you ever felt so bottled up you could explode? That's the way I felt as my life swirled around me. Things seemed to be crashing in on me and oh so suddenly. Sarah had to have known that something was up although her comments were always innocent and seemingly thoughtful. Alex also sensed that something had changed and I was holding out on him in some way.
I simply felt as if I was on pins and needles. This was all new to me. Well...being forced by two Vietnamese boys to confront my sexuality and stop hiding behind a false faΓ§ade...that was new...as was losing my virginity and more.
I didn't really regret losing my virginity. Hell, if I'm honest, I loved it. I can close my eyes and taste Huan and Tan's big cocks as they slide into my mouth, hit the back of my throat and go way down deep. It's as if my throat is an erogenous zone. I can smell the musk of their pubes as they grind their cocks in me and rub against my nose as they hold my head and fuck my face like it's a pussy. I'm not sure what gets me off the most -- their cocks or their dominant attitudes.
Then, of course, I just had to shudder as I recalled so vividly Tan's cock poised against my pussy, about to claim me once again. Just thinking about it made me sigh.
David, the guy in my cubicle heard it -- and said, "Matt what's going on with you. You've been day-dreaming all morning. You must be getting some!"
Damn, what is the matter with me? I'm dreaming of a kid and his cock deep in my throat and ass. It's as if I'm losing it and on center stage. I've got to get my act together.
"Naw, Dave, it's not what you think! Just dreaming of that cheese-cake I want for dessert," I lied.
Sarah appeared as Dave was laughing. "What's going on boys? What's so funny?"
Dave responded, "Matt here is making sexy sounds dreaming of cheese cake. Must be those cherries on top that he wants!"
Sarah laughed at that but said, "I'm not sure if it's his cherry he wants or someone elses but he's been a different guy since his recent trip to the massage parlor!"
Dave looked at me funny and said, "Matt, isn't that a Vietnamese guy who's been massaging you? Are you a pervert?
I had been sipping on a coke and choked, spitting some on my shirt. "Damn, Dave, Huan's not gay, just ask Sarah!"
"He's right, Dave, Huan's not gay," she said, quickly moving on.
However, what Sarah didn't say was that I wasn't gay. She just had defended Huan but not me. Was she trying to imply that I was gay? Either way, she left some uncertainty in the air and caused an awkward silence to descend into our cubicle.
Dave looked at me with an almost knowing stare. He was a scrappy guy about 5'9" and 155 pounds and kind of black Irish....in terms of that pale skin and black hair. He was also two years younger than I and fairly new to our company. What made it worse, Dave was damn competitive and I fought to keep only slightly ahead even though I had almost three years more experience. Was Dave sizing me up....in a different way?
With that, I excused myself saying, "hey Dave, got to go, it's time for lunch. Be back in an hour, Dude." He just grunted a reply, but I felt his eyes on my ass as I hurried out of our space.
I had just gotten out of our building and was breathing deep in the cool, crisp air when my cell-phone rang. It was Tan. Talk about timing, if he had called while Sarah was talking to Dave and I and she had figured out who I was talking with...well, I just shuddered at what that might have meant.
"Hey Matt, you all right? You sound out of breath," Tan said.
"Yeah, I'm fine, just a little thrown off this morning at work," I replied.
"Well, I'm thinking about throwing you around a bit myself," Tan responded. "Anyway, my dick is hard and wants your mouth and your pussy. I'm at lunch now but I won't want to wait long after school's out so I'm calling to get you thinking how to work things out, my boy!" Tan went on to say.
I was speechless. I had just come out of a close call at work and now Tan was demanding even more. It's not like I could refuse him, I don't know if I even wanted to or could. It was that I was afraid -- afraid of being outed to my roommate, my colleagues at work...to everyone. When I was away from Tan my big brain usually worked....but at this moment, on the street, talking on the cell phone, I simply couldn't think.