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Saturday came all too soon. I had spent the past three days helping my roommate, Alex, pack up his things and load them in a small trailer he had rented and attached to his car. He was excited about getting married and had talked incessantly about his fiance's creamy white breasts and how he longed to finally be able to shoot his sperm unimpeded deep into her womb and breed her. Apparently, Alex had never been bareback with a woman and was dying to learn first-hand, what Tan had already experienced with me. While saying these types of things, Alex would grab his hefty basket, look my way, and wink. It always made me blush as my clit and nipples firmed up, as I thought about what Alex's fiancΓ© would soon be getting.
Before leaving for good, Alex took one final turn around the apartment, ensuring he had collected all his stuff while having one last but of nostalgia. Before leaving, he told me to sit down in the living room as he had a few things to say.
"You know, Matt, I didn't realize you were gay when I moved in. Frankly, I might not have wanted you around had I known back then. I'm like most guys and put off by faggots. But we were friends and have been around each other for long enough that I think I just got used to you. For a long time, I thought you were possibly asexual or just intensely naΓ―ve about girls and sex. Still, deep down, I always wondered if you were gay. I finally figured it out one night when I came back early and heard noises coming from your bedroom. I thought, 'finally, Matt's getting some,' as I heard the telltale sounds of fucking. Then I heard your voice begging Tan to fuck you and I knew.
"That made me began to think about all the signs I had been seeing. You've always been a homey type, into arts and stuff. You liked to cook and were willing, with little coercion, to clean up after me. You never liked sports. I haven't seen you hanging out with the guys. And then this Vietnamese kid comes along. He's barely eighteen and into guy stuff like me. I kind of doubt he's even gay and wouldn't have believed he'd be into you had I not heard him fucking the shit out of you.
"You know, Matt, at first I was disgusted but the more I thought about it, I realized this kid was good for you. You're taking a greater interest in life since you met him. I'll admit, you're still pretty jittery, but I don't think you'd have ever done anything sexual with another human being had that kid not drawn you out. So, that's why I gave him the lease. An eighteen year old needs a lot of sex. Better that he get it from you than from some stupid pussy who could get pregnant and screw up his life. Plus, someone needed to help you find yourself. I would never have thought it would have been an eighteen year-old kid, but hey, who am I to judge since I've fucked my share of women along the way.
"I just wish you had been man enough to tell me. Maybe you're still finding it hard to admit it to yourself. Look, you are what you are. Men are different from women and straights from gays. Believe it or not, I wish you the best. Your life will be harder because of who you are especially since you're obviously a bottom. Tops like Tan are more or less like most normal, straight guys. Bottoms are more the stereotypical gay types. Just don't get too faggy, Matt. Hopefully Tan will stick around but I expect at some point, he'll move on. Just be ready if it happens."
Alex never gave me the chance to say anything. I wanted to refute it all. I wanted to say it wasn't true, that I wasn't gay, that I wasn't a bottom but that Tan never gave me a chance to be on top. But I couldn't get the denial out of my mouth before he had jumped up and walked out of my life and into his future. In fact, I think my mouth was still wide-open as I saw him driving away.
As you've figured out, by reading this far, I'm a ponderer. I needed to process what Alex said but didn't have time. I had to get the apartment organized. Tan expected me to have his room ready that afternoon. He also expected me to host a little graduation party ready for him so he could show off his new digs to a few friends before his actual move-in day.
As I buzzed about the apartment, I couldn't help but feel the itchiness of my pubes. Tan told me he wanted me to grow them out above my clit while insisting the rest of my body remain smooth. It was driving me crazy as I kept slipping my hands down my shorts into my panties to scratch. While I had come to enjoy the feeling of silky panties against my skin, today, they seemed to be catching on my re-emerging pubic hair. Frankly, I wished Tan had allowed me some cotton ones as I was afraid these would soon be ruined and I dreaded having to buy more.
Tan's graduation went off without a hitch. I sat with Mr. and Mrs. Nugyen, Huan and their two sisters. Tan was one of the sharpest guys in his class and had a cocky air about him as he strutted across the stage in his cap and gown to receive his diploma. After his younger brother had adjusted the tassle on his cap, Huan leaned over, whispered in my ear and said, "I sure hope you have something special to give my brother tonight!" He must have known I was thinking along the same lines when he looked down at my engorged clit showing ever so slightly beneath my trousers. He then added, "It's a good thing you only have a clit or it could get embarrassing for you!" With that, he laughed aloud while I turned beet red!
As the crowd dispersed, Tan came by to great his family and me. He had several girls and guys in tow and asked his parents if he could come home a bit late in order to show his friends his new apartment. You could tell he was very proud of himself for being the first among his peers to have arranged to move out. Mr. and Mrs. Nugyen granted his request but insisted on a 1:00 a.m. curfew. Tan looked knowingly at me and I excused myself to get the snacks and drinks I had prepared set up in the living room and kitchen.
I hadn't met Tan's High School friends and was very nervous as I waited for them to show up. Naturally, two of the guys hefted brown bags as they walked in with enough beer for everyone to have at least three. High School kids and alcohol are a bad mix, but I assumed all were over eighteen and planned to keep an eye on everyone. The kids didn't drink enough to get trashed, just relaxed and mellow as they shared the exhilaration of passing a major milestone in their lives. Tan was a total stud as he showed everyone around the apartment pointing out his new room and private bathroom.