Why Did I Wait My First Time

We cleaned up and moved to the backyard and laid in the sun on the lounge chairs again. Neither one of us of said a thing. The silence was getting uncomfortable.

The silence worried me. We were both old enough to be responsible for our own actions. No one was forced to do something they didn't want to do, but guilt can creep in. During sex, especially if it is new or unexpected, a person can get carried away with the erotic nature and intensity of the act. They can end up doing something they normally wouldn't do. In an excited sexual state, a person might push the boundaries beyond what, in a normal state of mind, they would never consider. Once that excited state subsides significant regrets can enter one's mind compounded by guilt.

Was Rocky regretting letting me do what I did to him? He was certainly ok with it during the act. He pushed my head toward his penis. He ejaculated in my mouth, and when I pulled off he continued squirting all over his abdomen while I milked his cock. I laid next to him and started masturbating. I did cum quickly, but he didn't attempt to reciprocate. I was a bit disappointed he didn't go down on me right then. We were done and he was sitting next to me covered in his semen. I gave him one hell of an ejaculation. While we were doing it I know he loved it. My limb dick was still in my hand lying to its side leaking semen. He did say that he would take care of me later, so I hope he does. Maybe he lost the mood. Sometimes I lose the mood after cumming, and he came hard, but maybe he didn't want to go full homosexual, like I did. Maybe he was having second thoughts about the whole thing and regretted allowing me to do him.

Did I cross a line that I shouldn't have? We have been friends for a long time. Growing up I had a deep affection for him. Never sexual but definitely a very close friend. Did I just ruin that relationship by sucking his dick. That was the first time I have ever done something homosexual, and he never gave me that vibe before. However, I never had the opportunity before either. That was the first time I masturbated with another guy, and it just seemed natural to progress from there to oral sex. I never had sexual thoughts about him throughout all those summers we spent together. We were young and innocent then. Both of us matured physically and he has developed handsomely. Seeing him naked aroused me and blowing him was extremely exciting. I feel that my fondness for him has become a full-on sexual attraction. This is completely new and unexpected for me. Something has occurred in me as that affection for Rocky has intensified into a lustful sexual thing. I've had a few gay dreams, and I woke up quite aroused, but I wrote those off as an active imagination. Sex with Rocky was different. This was as intense and sexually gratifying as doing it with a girl. I liked it. I've discovered something new, and I want to do it again.

I wanted to break the silence, but he spoke first.

"I don't know how you feel about what we just did but I'm glad you did it. When I suggested we go in the house and masturbate I was hoping something more would happen. Once we got to the basement I wanted to ask you if I could blow you. But I couldn't work up the courage. It was very intense masturbating next to each other. I got lost in the intensity of the moment watching your hand move up and down on that striking cock of yours. I wanted to reach out and take over jacking you. I was just about to reach over when you slid down and slumped on the couch. Your head moved closer to my crotch, and I waited to see what you were going to do. My heart nearly leapt out of my chest when you leaned over my stomach. I thought 'holy shit he's going to suck me', but you hesitated there suspended over my penis. I was so aroused with you hovering over my stomach that I couldn't resist. I threw caution to the wind and gambled you would be ok with me giving you a little push. I put my hand on your head and before I even nudged it down you went there. I wasn't sure how you were going to react, but when I felt your tongue touch my penis a jolt went through by body like electricity. When you took it in your mouth I was in ecstasy. That was the best blow job. When I climaxed in your mouth it was the most intense ejaculation I've ever had. I swear to God it felt like my balls were going to be sucked inside out with each spurt!"

I was elated to hear him say that. We are both mature males with strong sexual desires and that desire compelled both of us. I'm glad we didn't let the opportunity pass. We both wanted it, but we were both too reluctant to take that step. When I saw him naked I knew I wanted to blow him. I'm glad I did. It was amazing bring him to orgasm with my mouth, tasting his cum, and watching him spurt all over his stomach. I'm so glad he reacted the way he did.

"I'm pleased to hear you say that. The silence was worrying me. I thought maybe I overstepped our sexual boundaries, and you were regretting it. Honestly I don't know what came over me. I can't really explain why I did it. I've never thought about you in that way before, but you've matured since I saw you last. You have a great body. I got sexually stimulated watching you rub the sunscreen in your chest and abdomen. Then when we started talking about our sex lives I got hard. I was going to excuse myself and go in the house and beat off, but you suggested we masturbate together. Once I saw you naked I knew I wanted to do more than just jack off."

I continued, "Like you I was reluctant to ask too. That is a huge step to ask a guy if you can suck his cock not knowing how he will react. If you would have rejected me I would have been devastated. That's why I moved over next to you and began playing with myself I wanted to see how you would react to me getting closer. I intentionally slumped down to be nearer to your penis, and when you didn't move away that emboldened me. My desire for your cock took over. When you put your hand on the back of my head and pushed it down that was all the encouragement I needed. I eagerly went down on you."

Discussing our anxiety about initiating things was a big relief to me. My cock began to swell under my suit. It didn't take long, and I had a full hard on. Rocky saw it. He looked at me then looked at my bulging swimsuit. He got up off the lounge, sat on the side of mine, reached up, hooked his fingers under the waistband, and tugged my swimsuit completely off.

My cock sprang straight up. I thought he was going to start blowing me, but he didn't. He moved up, straddled my legs, leaned forward, laid on top of me, and started kissing me. I kissed him back. Our bodies were sliding together slick with sunscreen. He shoved his tongue in my mouth, and we madly swirled our tongues around each other's. I was overwhelmed and somewhat dizzy from the passion of it. It surprised the hell out of me because it felt as good as making out with my girlfriend. I was really getting into it, and I wrapped my arms around him and squeezed his pecs against mine. My nipples were hard, and I could feel them sliding across his erect nipples. He slid further up, grabbed my head between his hands and pulled it against his chest. He moaned deeply as I licked, sucked and bit his nipples. He slid back down my body kissing my chest and abdomen along the way. He stopped at my cock.

Rocky took hold of my penis at the base, leaned over and took all of it in his mouth. It was swallowed right down to the pubic hair. I didn't object. I didn't say a word. I just laid-back luxuriating in the feel of his warm wet mouth enveloping my penis. We were in the backyard completely exposed. The neighbors had an unobstructed view from there upper window, and if anyone came home we were in full view from the family room out of the patio windows. It didn't matter I was lost in the erotic euphoria of the moment. I knew we could get caught, but at that moment I didn't give a shit. My cock was being sucked on by my best friend. In the midst of this sex act, I felt a deeper connection to him. Did I have abnormal feelings for him. Fuck that, what's abnormal? I have always had feelings for Rocky. Those innocent feelings are stronger sexual feeling now and sucking each other cocks has amplified those feelings.

He was giving all his attention to my cock and balls. He stopped sucking it and started licking and kissing the length of it. I could tell he was loving the feel, the taste, and the erotic act of sucking a man's cock. I was trying to hold back but his mouth just felt too good. The passage to climax was quickening I was ready to explode, but then he did something I have never felt before.

There was copious amounts of his saliva running down my balls and into my ass crease. He let go of my balls with his right hand but continued to grasp my cock in his left as he sucked my dick. I could feel his finger moving around beneath my balls. He lifted off my dick, tilted his head to look down between my legs, and an instant later his finger was up my ass. I was shocked initially, but his finger moving back and forth in there felt good and set me on a path to orgasm. He was stroking my cock as he finger fucked me more aggressively. Thirty seconds of that ass finger fucking pushed me over the edge. The first stream I ejaculated shot over my head. I let out a massive groan and shot another half a dozen lesser streams on my chest and abdomen. He squeezed my shaft and milked the remaining semen out of my dick. He gently rubbed the head of my dick with his thumb and index finger, collected a helping of semen from the tip of it, reached up, and put the semen in his mouth. He was looking directly into my eyes as he did it. He was telling me how delectable sucking my dick was.

He said, "I saw you were getting hard, and I couldn't wait any longer. I wanted to pay you back right here on your patio."

I said, "That was fantastic as it was the best blow job of my life, and your fingers felt terrific. We better clean up and I need to get dressed before someone sees us."

"You're right and I can't wait until everyone goes to bed tonight."

With that we cleaned up. I found my bathing suit under the lounge chair. Good thing no one came home early I would have been caught naked on the back patio looking for my discarded trunks. About ten minutes after we put everything back in order the family came home. We got ready for the festivities.

That night was the rehearsal dinner to be held pool side on the patio. It started at 6:00pm it was a small close family and friend's affair. My girlfriend was there. I loved her and was happy to see her. When she saw me we kissed, and my mind went straight to when Rocky and I made out. I introduced her to Rocky and his family. The three of us talked for a long time. The conversation was mostly about our exploits at his family cottage. Layna and Rocky hit it off nicely and I could tell they like each other. That made me happy that my two good friends were so compatible.

Layna and Rocky were near the pool talking to other family members. I watched them talking. Layna was laying on the lounge chair that Rocky and I used just a few hours earlier. I got a bit of a twinge in my crotch thinking about it. I decided to go in the house to move away from the noise.

I moved to the den to get some solitude. I needed time to contemplate what transpire this afternoon. Me and Rocky went full homosexual and we both liked it. I was thinking about how we made out so passionately. We both got into that make out session, the intermingling of our tongues, the nipple sucking and biting, grinding our bodies together, and then that divine blow job, had my sexual excitement on a high. Recalling everything got me hard and I reached into my pants to straighten my penis. I was especially intrigued by the anal fingering he gave me. That was incredible as I never ejaculated over my head before. When he first put it in I was shocked to feel a finger up there, but it didn't take long, and I really got into it.

My second girlfriend, Sue, loved anal sex. Watching her get so aroused by being fucked in the ass had me wondering how it felt. Now I have experienced it. Maybe not the full experience of a real cock in my ass but the little taste I got from his finger had me considering trying Rocky's cock tonight. I was getting aroused thinking about it...Layna came into the room.

She said, "I was wondering where you went. Why are you in here all alone? Oh, I think I see why. What's going on down there?"

She was pointing at the bulge in my pants. She sat down next to me and grabbed it and started kissing my neck.

She said, "OOOOH that's a big bulge you have there what have you been thinking about? Why don't you unzip those and maybe I can help you out of this condition."

I said, "As much as I want to we can't there are too many people here and someone could walk in on us."

"That never stopped you before. Remember the time we did it in the closet on New Years Eve? There were at least twenty people near us."

"That was exciting, but we were both drunk and so was everyone else. If someone would have opened the door we would have just pulled it shut and finished what we were doing."

She was right I would have been game any other time, but I had other plans for later that night, and I had to conserve for that.

She said, "OK, but you are no fun. Come on people are starting to leave you should get out there and say goodbye."

An hour or so later everyone was gone only my parents, Rocky, and Layna were there. My parents went to bed and the three of us sat on the patio and talked for a while. I kept wondering when she was going to leave. A threesome crossed my mind, but I wanted Rocky to myself, and I didn't think she would be up for something that kinky. Maybe someday I could broach that subject with her but not tonight. She finally was ready to leave. Rocky went up to the bedroom and I walked Layna to her car. I kissed her good night. We talked for a while.

She said, "I really like Rocky. He's nice. You never told me he was so good looking. He has quite the physique on him. I can tell you guys are good friends, and that he really likes you. I saw him looking at you a few times and it seemed there was a bit more there. Did you guys ever do any, you know, experimentation back then, something more than just casual friends? Youthful sexual curiosity can be strong between such good friends."

"No there was never anything sexual between us we were just close friends."

"Ok that's fine it wouldn't be a big deal if there was. He's sleeping in your room tonight isn't he. You better be mindful the way he was looking at you he might try to make a move. I'll talk to you tomorrow you can fill me in then Ha Ha. Bye I love you."

"I love you too and your crazy thinking that stuff."

Little did she know it was me making the move on him, and I had big plans for how the night was going to go. I think I might have to tell her about this aspect of myself. Not anytime soon, but if we plan on staying together and if marriage is in our future I'll have to tell her before we get that far it's only fair to her.

As she drove away I started to get hard. I walked back to the house. I stopped at the downstairs bathroom to take a leak. My parent's door was closed they had gone to bed hours ago and were definitely out for the night. I headed up stairs with excited anticipation. I turned the corner and headed to my room. I opened the door and Rocky was lying on the bed with the bedding pulled completely down. He was naked lying spread eagle showing me everything. He must have shaved down there sometime since we did it. His pubic hair was close trimmed this afternoon but now he was shaved smooth. His cock was standing straight up and looked much bigger with no hair. As I got a closer look I saw that his balls were shaved too they were big and his scrotum hair free. His genitals looked amazing.

He smiled at me as I approached the side of the bed. I stood there taking in the surreal sensual image of his naked body and hairless crotch. I took off my clothes. I had a raging erection and precum was already leaking from it. I climbed into bed and laid next to him. I reached over and massaged his chest and kissed him. We made out exploring each other's bodies for a long time. I really got into kissing him. I found it very arousing. Making out with my girlfriends was always exhilarating and doing it with him was just as good. During this passionate make out session I reached down and fondled his dick and balls. I liked the hairless feel of them. His balls were soft and smooth, and his cock was hard and veined. I cupped my palm over the head of his dick and smeared the precum around it. This got him moaning and moving his hips around. He got more aminated and climbed on top of me.

We hugged each other and ground our cocks together. Copious amounts of precum was leaking from both our cocks and the slippery feel of our cocks rubbing together felt fantastic. He was on top of me, so I managed to get my legs from under him and spread my legs wide. Rocky was now between my spread legs in the missionary position grinding his cock into my cock and balls. He started pumping into me aggressively. I was holding on to him with my arms wrapped around his back. I lifted my legs up and wrapped them around his waist. He was simulating fucking me. I was in the submissive position that I've fucked every girlfriend I've had in (all two of them). I felt sexy and liked being under him. I remember his finger felt so good that I wanted his cock in me.

He was pounding his pelvis into me, and I wanted more. Just this afternoon I had my first homosexual experience I sucked my first cock and had mine sucked by him. Here I am now this same guy naked on top of me grinding and pounding his hard penis between my legs, and I want it in my ass. That was going total homosexual, and I didn't care. I want to explore this newfound sexuality completely. I want it all. I've done the oral thing now I want to try anal sex.

I said, "Put it in me. I want you to fuck me!"

He said, "Are you sure?"

I said, "Absolutely I'm sure. There is lubricant and rubbers in the nightstand get the lube but no rubber, and hurry I want you inside of me."

When I said those words it was so sexy because that is what Layna says to me when I get her so hot she begs for my dick. Now here I was begging for Rocky's dick just like Layna does. I know how she feels now. Cock is amazing!

He got up and walked to the dresser. I watched his muscular back flex and his luscious round bubble butt sway as he walked away. I was wondering if he was going to let me fuck him in the ass tonight. He got the lube and turned back to me his hairless beautiful cock sticking straight out with a string of precum hanging from the tip.

He walked to the bed and stood over me applying the lubrication to his penis. I asked him to apply it to my ass as I grabbed my legs at the knees and lifted them toward my chest. My ass was exposed, and he took a generous glob of lube and rubbed it into me first with one finger then with two. I moaned loudly as he massaged my inner ring. It loosened me up and I stopped clenching so hard.

I put his pillow under my ass to raise it up for better access. He climbed between my spread legs and positioned himself kneeling at my entrance. His hand directed the head of his cock to my anus and with his thumb he pressed it in. The head of his dick slipped past the outer ring quickly. He had about an inch in me. Rocky leaned over and placed his hands on the bed on either side of my shoulders. He pause for a moment. Our eyes met and we stared at each other as he pushed forward with his pelvis. I drew my legs up along either side of his legs and hooked my heals on the inside of his thighs. This position seem to open my anus a bit and his cock started to slip in further. He closed his eyes and pressed forward. He started to enter me deeper. It hit some resistance, so I concentrated on letting my anus relax and at that moment it quickly slid all the way in. His pelvis bumped into my balls, and he collapsed down onto me burying his face in the nape of my neck. He started to move his cock back and forth inside of me, and as he did this he started biting and sucking on my neck.