I was early, as I had been for my meeting at work that morning.
Being early for a business meeting is fine â it gives you a chance to martial your thoughts before the client arrives.
Being early for a meeting with the two men who plan to fulfil one of your sexual fantasies is not fine. It gives you time to consider chickening out before they arrive.
There I was, 30 years old, a woman who had always loved sex and who wasnât averse to a little light bondage with her boyfriend. But that was as far as it went. Iâd spent my sexual career having great sex without really pushing the boundaries. And now I was about to meet two men who intended to fuck me at the same time. Of course, Iâd always had fantasies about having two men at the same time. But fantasies are one thing. Doing what youâve fantasised about is something else entirely.
I sat in the coffee bar, wondering what had possessed me. Somehow an innocent mention of a favourite fantasy had ended up with me sitting there, trying to get my head round the fact that two men would be doing what they wanted with me in a couple of hours.
A few weeks earlier, I had mentioned to Chris, the man I was seeing, that Iâd often spent a happy moment or two imagining being fucked by two men. Iâd mentioned that fantasy to other men Iâd slept with, and the result had always been that the idea had turned them on. Nothing more. I was a little taken aback when Chris heard about my fantasy and said âWell, why donât we do it?â. I thought he was joking but it soon became clear he wasnât. He had a friend, Matt, that Iâd met once or twice and had got on very well with. He was an attractive man and he seemed to think I was an attractive woman. Chris mentioned his idea to Matt and Matt was all for it. Suddenly, from idly discussing a sexual fantasy, I found myself being asked when it might be possible for the three of us to get together. It still didnât seem real, even when we set the date.
We were to meet up after work on a Friday in late August, and go to Chrisâs house. When I realised the date weâd set was now only a week away, I started getting jumpy. Chris and I worked in the same office. I started asking him to take me for lunch or a quick drink after work whenever possible, just so I could tell him my doubts and suggest that maybe it was all a silly idea. He had an answer for everything â when I said I was self-conscious because I didnât have a perfect body, he told me that both he and Matt thought I was sexy and attractive and wanted to look at my body and touch it; when I said I was worried Iâd chicken out on the night and disappoint both of them, he said âIf that happened, well, weâd just spend the evening talking, then send Matt home and have great sex, just the two of usâ. It became clear that there was no way out. And somewhere in the back of my mind â and in my gut â I had a feeling that I might spend a long time regretting not taking this opportunity. But as Friday approached, I found myself getting increasingly nervous.
Now, waiting in the coffee bar, I was both terrified and excited. Chris arrived. He could see how I was feeling without me having to say anything. He massaged my shoulders, which were very tense. He told me everything would be fine and I could chicken out any time I wanted and thereâd be no hard feelings. It was a warm day and he smelled like himself, only more so. A male smell that I love. Matt walked in. Heâd just come from the gym. He was freshly showered and he smelled of fresh sweat. My doubts were beginning to fade away. We all had a coffee before leaving, as if for form. We talked about anything and everything â except sex.