Dawn and I needed to talk about everything that had happened, and I thought the best place to do that was in our bed. I wanted our conversation to be loving and intimate, not two people sitting on a couch separated by clothes, distance, and guilty thoughts.
We lay facing each other while we touched and talked. "Dawn, let me say something first. I want you to know that I love you with all my heart. I am so happy for you and Kim. The two of you have finally discovered your true feelings for each other and have become lovers. I think that's wonderful. I'm also happy that you and Bob had sex. I knew that it would be wonderful for both of you if you embraced it.
"The only thing I ask is that you be honest about your feelings and what you want. I hope that the last few days have opened a new chapter in your life. One that will make all of us happy."
She didn't say anything for a minute that felt like an hour. "I can't imagine that I would have ever done any of that if it weren't for your encouragement and Kim's help. You want honesty, and that's all I'll ever give you, my love. If it had been anyone else in the world, I doubt that I would have done anything. Kim broke down my barriers with love and not a little lust. I could kick myself for resisting my true feelings for so long.
"My biggest fear all along was that once the fantasy became real, you would stop loving me. I didn't want to risk losing you. The more you talked about sexy fantasies, the hornier I got, and the more I hid behind my fear of losing you.
"I am in love with Kim, but I want you to know in the deepest part of you that she isn't your competition or replacement. My love for her isn't the same as it is for you. It's not more or less; it's what it is meant to be. Only time will tell how it all works out. I do know one thing for sure. You both love me, and I love you. That will always be a wonderful thing."
I responded with a kiss and thought for a little while. "I hope that I've relieved your fears."
She nodded against me. "You have. I know as long as I'm honest with you and respect our marriage, you will stay right here with me, where you belong, where we belong."
I was very happy we were finally over that major speed bump in our lives. I needed my wife to know that I wasn't some jealous monster ready to run screaming from our marriage. "Let's talk about this new aspect of our lives. First things first. I think it's safe to say that we will be having sex with Bob and Kim again. As far as I'm concerned the only limits are if it has a negative impact on you and me. I don't want to use all my energy with Kim and have none left for you. I hope that you feel the same. I suspect in these early days, we're going to be gluttons for this new and exciting meal. Let's not lose us because of it."
Dawn nodded. "Especially Kim and me. We have each other, each other's husbands, and our own husbands. That's a lot of sex, but I'm not complaining one little bit. As a matter of fact, I'm looking forward to seeing what my limits are. I've orgasmed more in the last week than I have in the previous month, and that is definitely not a complaint about you. You are the most wonderful lover I've ever known. It has been amazing so far, and I want more. I promise you that I won't ever forget us in all of the excitement. I'm sure things will settle down after the newness wears off."
I knew what she was trying to say, and I agreed with her completely. Both of us were enjoying amazing sex with our friends, and of course, we wanted more. It didn't feel threatening to me at all. If anything, I think it made our marriage better. Telling Dawn that I trusted her was one thing. Showing her that I did by letting her be with others was proving it. We weren't just saying the words. We were living them.
"Let's agree to let things happen with Bob and Kim and see how it goes. I know they have our best interests at heart, just as we have theirs. We'll reach a nice balance soon enough as long as we communicate.
"I would like for you to take advantage of this trip. Treat it like you and Kim are free to have fun and enjoy yourself. Pretend I'm not your husband, and I'll do my best to make myself scarce. I don't want to inhibit you."
She sat up so she could look at me. "I refuse to treat you that way. If you can't be there...If you can't stand to watch over me, then it won't happen. I will never do something that would cause you pain. I most certainly won't do something that you would rather leave than see.
"Kim is really excited, and she's got me excited too. I want to go, and I want to have fun. It won't be able to if you aren't there. I expect you to have fun too. I also expect you to tell me if I'm doing anything that would hurt you in any way. I will do the same. Deal?"
"Deal."
We snuggled and napped for a few hours. We hadn't gotten much sleep the night before, but we certainly weren't complaining about it. Dawn's phone ringing woke us, and I left her to talk while I hit the shower. I was toweling off when she skipped happily into the bathroom. "Wear those hot boxer briefs I bought you and dress sexy. We're going out to dinner with Bob and Kim."
We were soon dressed and on our way. The four of us had always enjoyed our evenings out, but this evening was something new. It was remarkable to me how much each of us had held back before. There were many times before that I had a sudden urge to give Kim a kiss, even a peck on the cheek, but I didn't for obvious reasons. I knew that the others had felt the same way.
It isn't like we were making out with each other's wives in public. I shared intimate touches and signs of affection with Kim that I never would have before. Dawn was doing the same. We did the same with each other. The change was not only welcome but made it one of the best dinners we had ever shared.
I did want to touch base with Bob and took advantage of our wife's shared bathroom visit to do so. "I'll be blunt, Bob. You know, I'm genuinely curious. How did you two get to a place where you let Kim have sex with other men?"
He was perfectly serious when he answered. He knew I meant no offense and was well aware that Dawn and I had just started sharing. "It started when Kim was traveling, and there was this guy she was totally hot for. She called me and told me that she loved me more than anything and would do what I wanted. She said she would never ask again if I didn't want her to. I finally got her to tell me exactly what she was asking, and she informed me that it would be a lot of fun to fuck a sexy man she would never see again. I told her to go for it, and she did. Then, I waited for it all to fall apart, and it didn't.
"When she asked me to let her fuck another guy, I figured that my marriage was probably over. It seemed obvious to me that I wasn't giving her what she needed. I had this vision in my head of her finding the next guy and the guy after that until she either dumped me or I kicked her out. I could have refused, and I'm sure she would have tried to forget about it, but I knew she wouldn't be able to. For what was left of our marriage, she would know I had refused her. Eventually, the resentment would build, along with the temptation, until bad things happened. So, I told her to do it. I pulled the band-aid off and hoped for the best.
"Let me tell you for the record that I couldn't have been more wrong. I underestimated Kim's love for me and her commitment to me. She came home from her first hotwife experience while I was out of town. When I got home, she was waiting for me with open arms and total honesty. She had fun with the guy, really enjoyed the sex, and would love to do it again sometime. Just when I thought the hammer was going to drop, she said, "I won't do it again if you don't want me to. I sincerely mean that. I don't want to hurt you or lose you. Plus, it's your turn now anyway."