I awake bathed in warmth. My eyes are tight and sting from the crying I did before falling asleep and my body feels sufficiently battered. I sit up, pushing off the heavy arm that's wrapped around my waist.
"Hey, wake up!" I snap at the man whose body my back had been pressed against.
"Huh?" The general blearily opens his eyes.
"We're in bed together. Did youβ¦" I swallow, not able to complete the thought.
He groans and lays his head back down onto the pillow. "No, you'd probably have attacked me if I had tried anything. You asked me to sleep with you."
"I did not."
"I put you in bed so you didn't have to sleep on the cold ground, and then you started grabbing at me so I couldn't leave." He pushes up onto his elbows as I scoot away from him, clutching the blanket close to me. It reveals a topless man. I look away quickly, but not before the rather enticing image of his muscular chest is burned into my memory.
"I don't believe you." Though on the inside, I know it's probably true. Era always complains that I move towards whatever source of heat there is in the bed, that I push her to the very edge of the bed. And as a heavy sleeper, it's not new that I don't remember what had really happened.
"Don't believe me if you want." The general stands up and rifles a hand through his hair, a crease on his cheek.
The anger from last night comes rushing back to me. I also feel flushed remembering his kiss and look away.
"We're going to be leaving today," the general offers, as if he can tell what I'm thinking and would like to help distract me.
"Yes."
"I'll have Asa help you with getting ready for the day. I have some things to take care of." He leaves me alone for a few moments and returns with the white-robed woman. Asa.
She shows me how to clean my teeth using a paste and my finger, so different from the boar-hair toothbrushes we use at home. She tries to show me how to do up the underskirt the right way, but I just shake my head. I don't want to learn it.
She also offers me a veil of some sorts, pinning it to my hair which she does up elaborately with braids and twists and pins. "For your skin," she nods, looking satisfied with her work. "The sun is hot."
"Thank you," I say softly. She offers me a small mirror to look at myself, and I see how similar I look to these foreign women save the sizing issues. You can barely see that I'm a touch too pale under the veil, but from the outside I might just blend in. My hair has been plaited all around my head, making a top-heavy shape that is unfamiliar on me, but similar to what Asa wears now.
"Pretty." She pats my hand. Although overall Asa seems quite stern, she also has a calmness that seeps into me as she tenderly does my hair.
I smile gratefully at her, and she begins to tell me in her broken language that we'll be leaving soon. "Back to the king's home. Big big place, we all live there."
I realize she's talking about the palace. "Are there many people?" I ask absentmindedly, plucking at a loose thread of my sleeve.
"Yes, yes. Many people like me. You too will be there." I sigh as I'm reminded once again of my fate.
The rest of the day passes in a blur as the camp sets off. The tents seem to disappear by magic and more people than I thought were present all hopped onto horses or caravans. I cast a wistful look towards the direction I'd entered the camp just yesterday as I'm taken to King Azrath.
It's as if he's completely ignoring what happened in his tent. He puts an arm around my shoulder and I shrink away from him, wishing he wouldn't touch me.
"Ready to go, Selene? We'll be off soon." I don't deign to answer him, and he gives a loud laugh as if he finds my silence amusing. "You can ride with me."
And so I'm pulled onto his horse with him, for the third time in the past few days nestled between some stranger's arms atop a hulking animal. I'm relieved that he is much less handsy than Reno was, though sometimes I feel his hand brush against my breast. Each time I'm reminded of the rough treatment of my chest yesterday, which makes my stomach clench at the memory of being pinned under his sinewy figure.
I can't help but look back at the direction that Erik and I arrived from yesterday wistfully as the party sets off. Knowing that Azrath would come after me and kill me should I run - an insult to his sovereignty, perhaps - makes me shiver despite the warmth of his body close to me.
We travel for days, the dusty and sun-bleached environment transitioning into a little more greenery. First some bushes, then a few trees. I can barely believe my eyes when I see what must be their city. Nestled in between tall cliffs, the area is dotted with tall trees, pale and dry pillars that are so different than what Era and my home was surrounded with. But the city - the buildings - they're beautiful, in shades of creams and browns and reds that have all been bleached from the sun. On the far side of the city there's what looks to be a desert-forest or something of the sort. In the center of it all, for their city seems quite small compared to the city of my kingdom, I can see what must be the palace.
As we pass through the city, what citizens that are outside offer bows to the king. It's nothing like the intense treatment that our King Rosland demands, with horns announcing his royal presence so his people must come out to admire the precession. Here, it seems so much less⦠Pompous.
The closer we draw near to the palace at the center of the city, the more I am overtaken by a feeling of awe. Something about this place gives me the same feeling that the moon-glow meadow did. I feel invigorated.
The palace itself is surrounded with green things that seem to thrive under the sun that beats down relentlessly on my head. As we ride into the palace, I can see beautiful white flowers peeking out between glossy dark leaves. The vines are twisted around a large wooden and angular framework, which surrounds the border of the palace grounds. The ground is paved, studded with large and smooth stones. They are like gemstones, sparkling in the most beautiful and rich, dark colors. The light catches each one in a way that they glint so alluringly to me.
"Welcome to Gra'marah." I don't have to look at Azrath's face to know he's grinning at my awe. "I think it's safe to say you appreciate her beauty."