16 days to go...
John wakes up and heads to the kitchen wondering if his mother had made anything for breakfast. He is surprised to notice she didn't even make a cup of coffee for herself. He heads to her bedroom and knocks.
"Hey Mom, are you up? Are you ok?"
He listens and there is no response. He knocks again.
"Yeah son, sorry just being a lazybones this morning, I'll come out later." Sandy replies, just to get her son off her back.
"Ok I'll make my own breakfast then. Do you want any coffee?" John asks.
"No, just help yourself, I'll be out later."
John walks away from the door, confused. He hopes that his mother wasn't lying to him but her voice didn't seem to indicate any illness. No matter, he will go have breakfast and then go out to see his friends for basketball today. There are only 16 days until he and most of his friends head off to college, and after a year of senioritis they were really enjoying this summer together. There were some girls in his friend group but none of them really caught his eye. He wanted to be single for college, which he hoped was going to be his real initiation into the world of sex he watched and fantasized about online. His porn consumption had become almost second nature, and he did it without even thinking at this point.
After grabbing a bowl of cereal he goes to his mom's room and lets her know he is leaving to go play basketball, and will be back in the afternoon. He heads out the door, a bit concerned for his mother, but figures she's nn adult and can take care of herself and leaves.
Sandy lies in bed all morning depressed, coming to grips with the fact that her son is a disgusting pervert. As far as she knew he never had a serious girlfriend, never brought a girl over to their house, maybe never kissed a girl, and this is what he fantasized about. Choking women, it was perverse and took something inherently beautiful and joyful, human sexuality, and distorted it and turned it into something grotesque.
She lied there wondering what to do. She knows men have dirty minds, even normal healthy men like the boy's father could think of some naughty things, but John was her baby. John was pleasuring himself to this, this idea of rough sex and sexual submission of women to him. He probably never kissed a girl and this is what he thinks sex is. She finds it so sad. She thinks maybe she should bring it up with John, but then she'd then have to admit to spying on him using NetWatcher and she couldn't do that. It would just make him bitter and angry. She didn't know what to do so she lied in bed. Lied in bed in a nighttime t-shirt and panties.
John comes home at 1 pm and notices the apartment was just as he left it. He knocks on his mother's door again.
"Hey Mom, I'm gonna make a snack for the football game if you want anything." The truth is as sad as Sandy was that she was getting hungry. "I'll come out and help myself, don't worry about me." John helps himself and puts on the game on the tv. He sits down to watch. John was wearing what he wore for basketball with his friends, a t-shirt and mesh shorts.