Amber pulled herself up from between Susan's legs, and curled her entire body around her. She nuzzled Susan's neck.
"I love how you smell," Susan whispered. Susan was amazed at this woman she had met in her American History class just few weeks before. She had never been in love like this.
"Tell me what you fantasize about."
"I wasn't fantasying just then."
"That's not what I mean, I just want to you to tell me, now that you're all orgasmafied and vulnerable."
"Oh, ok. umm..." Susan looked at Amber with big eyes, and shrugged shyly.
"Tell me something that you're a little bit ashamed of."
Susan still couldn't answer, but she wanted to. Amber lay on Susan's chest and she could hear her breathing quietly. She could hear that the music she had put on an hour earlier was still playing.
Amber wasn't giving up. "Please. I'll tell you if you tell me."
"Ok." Susan told a truth, but not the first answer that came to her mind.
"Before I came out, I had fantasies about being raped...sort of. I wanted sex with a woman so bad, but I just wanted someone to see that about me and kiss me and make me eat her pussy."
"Do you still have fantasies like that?"
"I guess I don't anymore. I just have memories, ha ha."
Susan and Amber kissed again, as if they has just invented kissing, again. They put their tongues deep into each other's mouths, and between their breasts, and the backs of their necks, and squeezed their legs, and pulled each other close, again.
After a few minutes, they settled back down into cuddling.
"Tell me one of your fantasies, Amber."
"Ok, but I haven't told anyone this before. It's really bad."
"I don't care."
"I sometimes have incest fantasies."
"With your dad?"
"No, I've had fantasies about my mom."
"Get out! Really? That's amazing!"
"Amazing? You're not disgusted?"
"No, oh my god, Amber." Susan couldn't believe she was about to say this, and at the last moment didn't tell everything.
"So have I. I can't believe you are brave enough to tell me. I never would have told you. I had fantasies about my mom since I was a girl."
Susan couldn't believe she was having this conversation. If she had thought she was falling in love before, the thought of Amber sharing her taboo kink make her heart leap. And then at the same time, she panicked a little that she had told her secret.
"Really? Did you ever tell anyone? "
"No, I know that people are completely grossed out, but I always thought my mom was beautiful and so wonderful and I just wanted to hold her and, um, go... further with her, even when I was in high school. She was sort of sad and lonely."
"That wasn't my mom. She always had boyfriends, I never had a real dad. She had me pretty young and partied a lot when I was a girl. This one time--maybe when I was older--we were at a big party at a neighbor's house. These people had a huge place and always had wild parties there.
"I was sitting on the deck with my friends, and I was horny, of course, because you are at that age, but couldn't do anything about it because I wasn't out to myself yet, let alone to my friends, and then my mom walked out of this room and onto the deck to have a cigarette and I think that she had just been fucked or something. She had this glow about her, and then this neighbor guy, this married guy, walked out just behind her, and then another neighbor guy too, and I think they had all just had sex, but instead of being complete grossed out, I saw her like I'd never seen her. It was both awful and weird, but that night when I was alone in bed I masturbated and thought about my mom having sex with those two guys, and I had great orgasm. It became one of my favorite fantasies--sometimes I pretended that I was one of those guys."
"Wow. Your mom is not like my mom."
Susan put a hand around Amber's breast and lifted her lover's nipple into her mouth.
"My, my, you have such magnificent tits!" Susan pulled her mouth away and looked at Amber excitedly. "Hey, let's do that tantra four-kinds-of-breast-massage thing."
"Oh yeah, like what you read about in that lesbian tantra book? "
"Let me to it to you first. I want to worship your amazing tits."
"What should I do?"
"Just sit up there, and I'll sit between your legs."
"Ok." Amber pulled herself up and got comfortable at the top of the bed. "Your breasts aren't half-bad either. They are just the size of peaches."
Susan chuckled, "I had another lover who said that."
"Another lover? You mean I'm not your first?"
"No, you're not my first, but you're the first woman I've done this with."
"Done what?"
"This. Worshiped her breasts. I love your breasts, Amber, I could just make them my personal lord and savior."
Susan buried her face between them for a few seconds, and Amber put her hands on Susan's head. "Bless you my child."
Susan brought her head up and grinned. "Ok, let's start."
Susan sat back on her heels in front of Amber and started massaging her breasts. Susan needed a little bit of distraction from the revelation of their shared fantasy.
"I love just sitting here in front of you, just touching your breasts. Stroking, smoothing, pinching."