Chapter One
Maggie
The drive home was a quiet one. They listened to the radio mostly, but occasionally spoke to each other as Nick drove the three-and-a-half-hour trip back to Atlanta. They both spent their time contemplating life when they returned from vacation, but more importantly, what the future would look like now that the two of them had come so close in body and mind. Nick, being a 19-year-old boy, was sure to see life as limitless and full of possibilities, as a teenage boy often did. But Maggie saw something entirely different. Her view was different, not just from her age and experience, but because she knew she was returning to pain. Physical pain. It would seek her out shortly, and there was nothing that could stop it.
Nick still didn't know that his father knew about their affair, and Maggie was intent on keeping it that way, no matter the cost. It was up to Maggie to think of a plan, a strategy to quell her husband's fiery temper. She had very little planned to do so. She only prepared herself for gritting her teeth and dealing with what came her way.
Maggie never actually entertained the idea of separating from Jack. The concept felt so alien to her that it was never a real possibility. She saw that divorce was a greater failure than anything else she had done in life. This relationship, this marriage, was her's, and it was her's to fix.
But the question remained:
What am I going to do about Jack when I get home?
Startling Maggie from her stress ridden stare at her sandaled feet on the car floor boards, Nick asked her, "so what are you going to do?"
Chapter Two
Nick
"What are you going to do?" Nick asked as he coasted in the right lane with the cruise control on. He wasn't specific on purpose, but despite the brief, confused look Maggie gave him, he knew she understood.
"I don't know..." Maggie admitted.
"Look," Nick said, staring at the road. He chose his words carefully as he drove. "I know it's your body and your life and everything, but you shouldn't get beaten or hurt by anyone-no one should have to deal with that. If there's a chance he's going to keep doing this, you should go to the police, or at the very least leave him. And I'm not saying that for me or, you know, whatever. But you can't- it's not safe."
Maggie took his free hand and clasped it between her palms in her lap. The look she gave him was one of caring appreciation. Nick hated it. Not only was she still pandering to him like he was a child, as if she was about to say, "Oh, sweetie..." but the look also told him she was going to do nothing.
Maggie stayed quiet for several minutes as she rolled Nick's palm in her hand. Nick used the time to wonder what his role in all of this was. He had spent the weekend in a combination of trying to forget the taboo weirdness he was enabling between his stepmother and himself, and occasionally thinking he was getting back at his abusive father by hooking up with his stepmother. It was strange. He had no clue his father was abusive to women, but yet, when he found out and saw the bruises on Maggie's neck, it did not surprise him.
It made Nick question other things, as well. Like, were drugs the real reason for his biological mother's disappearance? His father had always told him since he was young that his mother was an addict and abandoned them both when he was only 9 years old. It was a hard truth he swallowed for many years until he couldn't chew anymore.
Denise Towne was a young, vibrant woman. His mother had unblemished skin, a smile that refused to disappear, and an infectious laugh that made everyone feel at home.
The more Nick tried to remember the "dark times" with his mother when he grew older, the more he realized there were none. Sure, he could recall times of tears and crying. One memory stood out of his parents' screaming in the kitchen. Nick would tuck himself under the covers and plug his ears when the fighting got bad. And this time there was breaking glass and other loud booms throughout the house. But, like every other time, eventually Nick slipped away into a restless sleep and when he woke, mom was as smiley as ever.
"Dad, I don't remember Mom using drugs," Nick had stated one night when he was a teenager. It was months before his father started dating Maggie. "And there was none of it around the house or-"
"Your goddamn right there wasn't, I never let her bring that around you and me. Don't you remember all those fights we used to have before she ran away? She was using more and more back then." Jack sniped. He left the room abruptly, "best not to think about her. You and I got each other."
But now, as he drove with the rising sun on the side of his face, he started to imagine his life now. Not regarding the mess he created with his stepmom, but what family he had left now. Nick tried to imagine going to dinners, summer visits, and Christmas vacations with his dad. It was all tainted. Just imagining his face enraged him.
How can I ever look at my father again, knowing what he is? If I don't spend time with him, then who? I'm alone. I'm utterly alone.
"I don't think I should drive back to school today," Nick decided. "Maybe we can get a hotel in Atlanta and figure things out."
"Here's what's going to happen," Maggie said with a deep sigh and a decided voice. "You're going to drop me off at the house, get in your car, and drive back to school, where you're going to worry about normal college guy things." Nick rolled his eyes and shook his head.
"Is my dad still in Michigan, or did he come back home to Atlanta?" Nick asked.
Maggie shook her head. "I don't know. I haven't heard from him." But something in Maggie's voice made him question if that was the truth. "Look, can you just do this for me? I know you don't want to, but I'm asking as a favor to me and don't argue with me, okay?" Maggie spoke in a tone of a mother scolding her son, which only made the car ride feel more uncomfortable. Nick remembered last night and the swirl of body and limbs they had made together as he had sex with his stepmom.
After a long minute of Maggie staring at him with a perturbed look on her face, Nick finally nodded. "Okay, but on my drive back, I'm going to stop and get a new phone. And I just want texts to make sure you're alright, okay?"
Maggie smiled and nodded. "Of course."
The rest of the drive was a blur of zoning out and quiet contemplation. When they neared the city, Nick saw a nervous energy about Maggie. He again lightly pressed the issue of if she would like him to go inside with her. With a more annoyed response, Maggie told him no and went silent.
Pulling the SUV into their house driveway, Nick grabbed his bag and went around to say goodbye to his stepmom, but saw that she had already gone inside the house with her bag and closed the door.
Was she mad at me? Did I do something wrong?
Loading his bags in his own car, he started it up and began his long drive back to school..
Chapter Three