It was a slow, cold rainy night as the clock went past 10 PM. My partner and I had been posted for the past hour, and from experience I felt that we probably wouldn't be getting any more calls tonight. Cold rain tends to keep people inside and not out doing anything stupid. The other thing that a rainy night does is create boredom. When you're stuck just sitting in the front of an ambulance for several hours you just kinda run out of things to do.
I had been working with Linda for about 2 weeks. From when I first met her about 2 months ago I knew I wanted to work with her. After 24 years as a paramedic I was worn out, grim, and seemed to always have a certain sadness about me. I first saw Linda in our headquarters parking lot one night as I was getting off a long shift. Her smile and caring eyes seemed to lift years of burdens away from me as we stopped and spoke for a few minutes. I spent the next month pulling in favors and bugging supervisors to assign us on a truck together. Linda was an EMT with 2 years' experience and was working on a BLS (basic life support) truck with another EMT. My break finally came when her partner suddenly quit. It didn't take much convincing to management to have her truck made into a advance life support unit and get myself assigned to it.
Linda had no idea of my behind the scenes maneuvering, but was very happy and relieved to find out we would be working together. One of the biggest fears everyone has in this business is being stuck with a partner you don't like.
Over the years I have always worked to keep things above board and professional with my partners, especially the female ones. Even though I have flirted with a number of my patients and partners I never have crossed any sexual boundaries. I'm not going to claim to be a perfect, faithful husband, but after watching to many good medic's careers go up in flames I knew better than to mess around with anyone at work. Please understand I'm not saying anything about anyone who has been tempted to cross that line. When you are dealing with stressful situations on a daily basis with someone, and spending countless hours together in close quarters it is very easy to fall into an affair.
So for the last 2 weeks I had worked very hard to always be professional. That's not to say we had not instantly bonded as partners. Linda instinctively handles emergencies like I do, and has a wonderful sweetness and kindness in her patient care that balances well with my personality. We both quickly found ourselves looking forward to the start of our shifts and seeing each other. Linda had a way of bringing the excitement of when I first started in EMS back to me. We had already learned everything about each other's lives and enjoyed talking about any subject.
I'm 56 and Linda is 50. She had been divorced for 2 years after 25 years of marriage to a guy who emotionally abused her. She raised 5 great kids during that time without much help from her spouse. To say the least she had a jaded view towards men. I was on my 3rd marriage for the past 6 years. Even though my wife is a fun person to be with, the sex sucked. I had learned to accept it and had settled down into a comfortable, if somewhat boring, life at home.
So on this cold, rainy night I sat staring out the window watching the raindrops I was thinking about the night before. It had been a crazy, busy night. The opposite of this night. We had several bad calls and had gotten off 2 hours late from our 12 hour shift. As I walked Linda to her car I suddenly pulled her to me and kissed her. It had seemed to be the most natural thing in the world to do. She was shocked but had not pulled away or resisted. I've kissed a lot of girls in my life, but never like this. It was just a light brushing of lips. A shared breath. So soft and tender, but also so full of passion it took my breath away. Suddenly coming to my senses as to what I had done, I hurriedly apologized and rushed off to my car leaving her standing there. I felt as stupid as a junior high school kid who just stole his 1st kiss from a girl at a dance.
Tonight through checking the truck off and the 3 easy calls nothing had been said about last night. In fact, not much had been said at all. None if our usual conversations, jokes, or sexual innuendo we've already grown accustom to in a few short weeks. As I stared out the window she sat reading a book which she had not turned a page in for a half hour. Figuring that I had destroyed a new friendship and great partnership I decided in a brilliant stroke of wisdom to put up or shut up and lighten the mood up. A old joke in EMS on long posts is to sometimes joke around about jumping in back of the ambulance, watching some porn, and jerking off when everyone knows you're just going to take a nap.
I've had even already said it to Linda a few times and gotten a laugh or a have fun type comment out of her. This time however when I said it she closed her book, turned and looked at me, and said, "Can I watch?"
I'm sure I looked ridiculous with my mouth opening and closing trying to figure out if she was serious or not.
"Sure," I finally managed to say as I got out of the front of the ambulance to go to the back.
I know, I know...real profound and sexy.
"What do I do now?" was what I was really thinking as I walked to the back. Nice job talking about the elephant in the room and making matters worse I thought.
Now I've jerked off with women watching me before, but it has been awhile. My 2nd wife was particularly fond of watching me jerk off for her before she passed away. Truth be told, it has been several years since I've done anything with a woman, and as I climbed in the back of the ambulance with Linda following me I thought that if I can even get it up I'll probably cum in 3 seconds or so. Real impressive. At least she won't think there's an elephant in the room when she sees my small dick.
If you've never been in the back of an ambulance before let's just say that there isn't a lot of room. The stretcher us about as long and wide as a normal person, and is piled up with our jump bag and cardiac monitor. There is a 6' long bench seat on the right side, a captain's chair at the head of the stretcher, and the stretcher sitting slightly offside to the left with about a foot of space between it and the bench seat. Neither the stretcher nor the bench seat are built for comfort, both having just thin foam padding. I've known a number of medics who have claimed to have had sex in the back of an ambulance, but not me. Never have even come close. I've had a couple of female psych patients come on to me in the past, but good old fashion ethics (and the fact they were nuts) always kept me in line. Back to the ambulance- there is a small counter next to the captain's chair to do paperwork on and lots of cabinets on both sides and the front wall for our supplies. Also there's the windows, two on the back doors, one on the side door, and of course the windshield. Even though the back and side door windows are heavily tinted if it's dark outside and there is any light on inside you can see through them easily, and anyone standing at the front of the truck looking in could see all the way into the back of the truck. This may seem like a great adventurous place to make love to a young fit couple, but at my age I prefer a nice warm bed with soft sheets.
