After what I had done (see the story "Blowing Big Brother") I was a mess. My mind was gone, despite being able to pay off my gambling debt I could not let it go. Could not shake the memory of me on my knees, sporting an erection sucking off Neil and letting him cum in my mouth. It was too terrible and before I knew it my life was in a mess again. Another card game gone wrong and another set of scrambling for enough to pay it back weren't warning enough and sure enough nearly three months to the day that I humiliated myself by agreeing to suck my big brother's cock in his office I was faced with the prospect of going back to him to ask him to bail me out again. Not something I was looking forward to!
I went after five and wouldn't you know it, his cocky bitch of a secretary, Miss Kebbler, that had witnessed my humiliation was at the desk almost like she was waiting for me. What a look of disdain she shot me as I came in the door. Jeez, the first time I had laid eyes on her I had wanted to get in her pants now she had seen me suck my own brothers cock and she looked at me like I was something on the bottom of her shoe. I asked if I could speak to Neil and she just smirked and departed into the building leaving me standing like a prize lemon in the waiting room.
She was gone for nearly twenty minutes. Twenty minutes in which I mentally tortured myself for coming back here, surely I knew what it meant and even worse I was slightly aroused by it. There was something seriously wrong with me. When the bitch did return her cruel smile was even more in evidence and she had something in her hand that I couldn't quite make out.
"Mr. Clark will be able to see you but he did stress he doesn't have long and that if you are to be given an audience there is a very strict dress code."
I knew what was coming but asked anyway.
"Such as?"
"Nothing at all, you take all your clothes off and put this on and let me walk you through to his office."
And with this information she released a chain and dog collar from her hand and let it fall at my feet. What kind of sick freak was my big brother? Worse still what kind of sick freak was I? I had known it would be like this after last time and yet here I was needing money and prepared to do the lowest things to get it. I barely even held the blonde's stare before I was peeling off my clothes and handing them to her while I allowed her to snap the old leather collar around my neck. I dropped to my hands and knees and let her lead me through the offices like a helpless bitch.
As I crawled across the thick carpet, my eyes set on her high stiletto heels I was forced to realise that somewhere deep inside I must have wanted this. When I had paid off my debts last time with my 'earnings' for sucking Neil's cock and swallowing his cum I could have left it at that and learned my lesson. But I hadn't and all too easily I had come, literally it seemed, crawling back to him to ask him for money, sure in the knowledge there would be a price to be paid for him lending it to me again.
Miss Kebbler knocked on his office and entered with me padding along behind her. My older brother was typing away madly at his desk and did not even bother to look up as we entered. God, the charade was annoying, I just wanted to shout at him:
"Look your loser little brother is here again debasing and humiliating himself so you can get your kicks. Get you cock out and lets get this over with so I can get the cash and get out of here."
But I didn't. I just knelt there patiently and waited for him to acknowledge our presence. It was at least five minutes before he finished and got up, patted his secretary on the ass and came around his desk to stand before me. Here we go, I thought, open up and swallow time. Why did I have a semi hard on?
He looked down at me with that smug, condescending face and sneered his words out.
"So you're back, are you? Looking for more money, I presume. Or just because you enjoyed last time so much? No, don't answer, I'll make up my own mind. How much do you need this time?"
"Five thousand" I barely whispered in shame.
"Well I don't have that kind of money here you'll have to come back at this time tomorrow to collect it. But I'll tell you what as an act of good faith why don't you entertain Stacy and myself."
Here it came. Suck my cock.
